feel that i'm just so stupid...
go ahead and go out with your friends all you want, without thinking about me first....
i will learn from you and don't u come and say me...
i'm tired of it... everytime being pang seh and in the end i've got nowhere to go...

humans are just making use of each other, now i feel that its just so true...
go find your friends for help when u need, since they are more important than me...
everything is just my fault... i have very strong motive in everything... i always purposely say no place to go so i can cling on to u and your friends... i do that because i want to spy on you... i do that because i want to get close to your friends and fling with them... i am a very evil person... i'm a liar... yes, that's what i am...

believing it or not, its still up to each person's thinking...

fucking bored staying home on a saturday night.... wasting my second last day of holiday.... arghhh... anyone free????
I love you. || 10:20 PM

nothing special for the pass few days... wednesday i went for the interview at sim for my degree course... hopefully i can get into the degree and finished it within 3 and a half years... the person say longest can be up to 8years, depending on how many modules i take at a time since its a part time course... hope i can get in and able to cope.... and met up my my course mates in town to shop around....

yesterday went down to town again to get a bag and cardigan for bf... today went to get my hair permed with kimi... finally i've the courage and decide to perm my hair... haha! it only cost $80... though now the perm is still quite curl, which i dun really like... but i shall wait for a few days for it to loosen abit, which should be nicer and what i wanted...

one week just past so fast....boring sia... but also looking forward to see those children again! haha! didnt get to meet up with my clique... =( shall we go singing next week??? hehe.... bf is coping well with school, i guess? haha! hmmm... i've always stick to him, shall give him more air to breathe, like what he said... so ya, i should and give myself more space too, i guess....

BORING!!!!!!
I love you. || 10:52 PM

having my one week holiday now!! yay!!! so i'm gonna spend them fruitfully... i wanna meet my friends!!! and spend more time with my bf since he starts school already.... anyway, monday i went back to work and went for my waxing after that...

on tuesday, which is today, i went for facial in the noon and went to find my bf in his school. after that, we went back to his place for dinner and slacked. had a great time with him... i felt the bond again =) its good that he is studying, coz he has more things to talk to me... he shares about what his lecturer says...

tmr, i'll be going down to SIM in the afternoon for my interview for the bachelor in ECE... after that will be meeting my sp course mates to have a catch up session =) and my dinner? not sure yet, anyone wanna meet me for dinner?

thursday, no plans yet....

friday, also no plans... but was thinking if my clique could meet up and gather for dinner. as i missed them alot and i missed those days where we were all free... we went to play board games and stuffs... it was so much fun! =)

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anyway, something i had in mind. i just dun understand why some ppl (girl) doesn't know how to see situation and timing. people's gf is just there and she wanted to feed him to eat sth... luckily he never want to eat that from her hands... and people's gf is there, she can hit his leg until so shiok... isn't that girl showing signs of flirting? stop being flirtatious towards my bf can... i know you are just that type of girl, but can you go find other people to flirt? can't you see my bf is not interested? -.- the sight of seeing you speak and walk and everything else, just makes me irk and wanna puke...

k, i'm done with my post today! =)
I love you. || 12:29 AM

working life has been horrendous and fun. the K1s were really like monsters!!! i'm going to vomit my organs out soon. there is not a single day that i do not have to shout at them. nothing much to talk about work life. its just routine everyday... tired and exhausted... kids really do drain your energy...

as for my love life, seems like remains stagnant, there's still ups and downs. but recently, hmmm, from what i remember and my feelings tells me that its more of smooth than rough... not much of problems, but there are. hmmm... dun really know if you guys get what i say, but its quite difficult to describe in words. anyway, i'm kinda confused. sometimes i see future but sometimes i don't. so we shall just wait and see what happened in future. take step by step... dun wish to think so much anymore. and the my job has drained my energy, so won't have much energy to bother so much. that's why i like to have something to do to keep my mind occupied rather than having time to think so much and be paranoid.

something interesting happened this morning which makes me realised that actually i still am attractive. haven't been feeling high self-esteem for so long. thought that i am really that chui. anyway, in the morning, i while walking to my work place. there's a guy we cycled towards me and stopped in front of me. for that moment, i thought that he wanted to ask for directions. but he held out a paper and said, "小姐，可以跟你做朋友吗? (miss, can i be your friend?)" i was shocked and replied "no." then i walked off. so this incident kinda boost my lost confidence again! =)

anyway, i've rearranged my room on sunday. now, i have a queen sized bed, given from my sister and bro-in-law, as they have extra. besides that, my wardrobe is now in my own room. and the tv n dvd is on a wall shelf in front of my bed. the fridge remains. last thing, i'm waiting for my bro-in-law to give me the tv console for me to put my computer beside my bed!!! its so cosy and nice!! i love my room. it just makes me wanna go home and relax on my bed... hahaah!!! I'M LOVING IT!!!! =)

I havent been watching movies or going out with my bf, so nothing to write for this aspect...

I love you. || 6:30 PM

first day of work after the holidays was still fine, as there isn't any teaching involved. but my throat is starting to sore.... the K2s are still manageable as for the K1s about 10 of them still do not know how to write their names... and their discipline is still not there yet... other than that was fun! they are just so adorable... and the Nursery children are crying their lungs out... i was like fighting for my voice to be heard in my class... that explains why my throat is sore.. LOL

one boy, very chubby and eats alot. guess what he did? he bit off one corner of the eraser!!! OMG!!! LOL. that's funny but got to let him know he can't do that. looking forward to tmr!

and after work, i went to look for hubby... then we went to watch "Just call me nobody". it's a quite funny show but quite lame... LOL. there's a part where the girl actually was going to be married to the king. but she went back to find the cobbler guy... and i teared. its so touching lo... den hubby say i lame... LOL.
I love you. || 10:29 PM

holidays ends here and work starts tomorrow!

actually, i'm kinda looking forward to starting work. i've been rotting for a long time, seems a bit like waste of time and spent lots of money... BUT have great time spent with hubby and family and my friends. even though, its just the few days of catching up with my friends, i felt great! they are always there for me. so my friends, please call me out more often... i need you guys back... =)

school term starts and i'll be taking K1 and K2 classes... everyone says its stress and tough to take two levels. but i dun have a choice, the decision doesn't lies in me. haha. so face it! and i'll tell you all about it when the stress really comes... haha!

i want to find evening jobs too, to earn extra allowance... any intros please let me know, preferably tuition for pri 1 - 3. thanks!
I love you. || 10:27 PM

wishing everyone a happy new year!!! hopes everyone will forget 2010's unhappiness and look forward to 2011's happy moments!!

New Year's Resolution:
1. Spend my days fruitfully
2. Less making my family and bf angry
3. Less jealousy
4. Don't wish to bother so much
5. Earn more money, save more and spend less
6. Find back my friends
7. More patience
8. Be happy
9. Less naggy
10. Less possessive
11. Exercise!
hopes that i can do all the above... i'll try... and maybe add more if i have.. LOL!


another thing is, why are some girls just so desperate to make friends? and what's more, making wanting to make friends with people who has gf? WTF! cant they just target single guys. just don't understand why... one thing for sure to say, not trying to boast or what. i've nv ask a guy "can we be friends? sorry if you mind." what do you want to get out from it? its weird if the attached guy says no but "wrong" to say yes, what will his gf think? just make me thinks that she is a fucking bitch... Oops! my bad... but maybe its just me being too concern on such things, or you can say afraid or possessive. anyway, its just my way of looking at it and my opinion.
I love you. || 3:32 AM

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