why do i say so?
here are some points. she never had any financial problems. able to get money from dad to take car license. have fixed allowance every month. study until University. gets to go out as and when she like. don't need to help out in my family stuffs. no one can control her.
and for me? what i get in return for being good girl? i helped out in family stuffs all that, not wanting something in return, i just want more FREEDOM. every weekends i stay at home whole day, help this and that, and this is what i get? a few hours of chilling out at night also cannot. WTF is this? is this fair? what's fairness? and i dont get fixed allowance every month, sometimes have sometimes dont have. i want to go take car license too. BUT??? dad say no money. for my Uni? mum say earn myself. i'm fine with all these actually. i can depend on myself. cause since young, i'm always stronger than my sis.
she's too pampered since young. she only started working at the age of 18? whereas, i started seeing the world at the age of 16 already. why does the girl who always helped out doesnt get FREEDOM??? why why why? i just cant understand. even outsiders also can see that who's the better girl. the thing that no one can control her is because she is pampered since young, never had any difficulties before, therefore, now she struggling with her competitive work.
she can choose not to help and go out. i TOO, of coz can choose not to help. but i'm a more understanding girl than her. if i dun help, mum will be tired. but why why why. why don't i get my freedom? weekends are for doing home stuffs? i think weekends are for relax and chilling. sigh. just now so feel like just running out of the house. how i wish i did it. but i didn't. BUT, if someday, i cant tolerate anymore, I WILL!!! try me. humph!
if i become rebellious or something happened to me, don't blame me. blame yourselves. too much of control over someone, they will got rebellious one day. REMEMBER THIS.
fucking pissed. no one knows how i feel deep down in my heart. as usual, humans are always wearing masks. you'll always see me in a happy mood, just like anyone else, i won't show out my unhappiness. bottle up everything. but luckily i still have this blog to throw out everything and have my bf and friends as listening ears. if not, i think i have depression. LOL
GOOD GIRL = NO FREEDOM
all i wanted is just a more normal lifestyle. i will still help, but at the same time, i want my FREEDOM too. god, please hear my prayers and set me free.
