i feel so useless at times... and now i realise that i'm actually not good enough. be it inner or outer beauty. i've so many bad points.
dunno why i'm becoming more and more petty, gets jealous easily, affected easily, emotional, blah blah blah. why does it comes naturally to me when i put in more and more love? i dun wish to be like that. i hate myself being so petty and emotional and affected and jealous easily. i'm a girl who can take things easily. but why now i cant? what happened to me? where has that samantha gone to?
why does love and all these silly things come together? i want to love. i want to be a better person. i need to control myself from all these silly things so as to achieve happiness. i am a girl who can take jokes, right? so i should just keep it this way. and be happy! i know which are jokes and which are serious, i can differentiate. so why so affected by jokes... stupid me... love makes me lose my senses.... haha! :p
in the past, to me, i feel that you need not change for someone. the other part should just love you the way. but now, i feel that changing for someone whom you love isn't wrong too. both parties should play a part in building a stronger relationship. and what's more, you are changing your negatives to positives, so its for your own good too. and no matter what happens, both should stand together and solve it. this will build up the relationship too. though we haven't met any really difficult and serious problem, or maybe we had, we will be able to do it together =)
all i wish for is my hubby's love, heart and dote on me.
have your eyes and mind and heart just on me =)
and i know you have already placed your heart with me. loves~
