♥ Happiness is around me ♥

lost soul

Date : Thursday, February 26, 2009

had been thinking so much lately, though enjoying my trips.

can someone please tell me what should i do?
wait or give up?
and will everything still be the same?
is the trust still as strong?
is the love still as much?
the scar will definitely be there.
i need an answer...
move on or stay put???
somehow he still couldn't give me the answer?
and without an answer, i am just a lost soul.
i feel that i'm just a friend to you...

dun get me wrong, i'm not being emo here. just wanna sort them out.

I love you. || 2:48 PM

SINGLE

Date : Friday, February 20, 2009

i am happily single now... and not into any relationships... so people, dont jump into conclusion... yea... went to watch "alls well ends well" with kelvin that day. and met up with victor and his fren to eat, after that we went to chamber to play lan... LOL. L4D and CS!!!! waahahahaha!!!! fun :)

i'm not emo anymore... and dont wish to think so much.... people say "even if get back together, everything will be different"... hmmm... i guess so... and you are happy and enjoying your life, so why should i come disturb rite?

anyway, today is a very busy day. so many people asked me out. LOL. but i oni going for one:) hehex... of coz lah, if not hw i split into 4parts? hahax....

i've got so much movie that i wanna watch!!!! oh ya! yesterday presented my portfolio again... haiss... got alot of arrows shooting on me... i cried... so paiseh... but they say until very hurting... and i really dun wanna fail again.... hope they will pass me... i just wanna graduate and go do what i want. dont wish to be stucked in this... but they say until like will fail me... so i oso dunno... pray for me please... LOL.

PS: i think you should move on. we are over. and its not worth ending your life just like that. there are so many better ones out there that suits you. i thot you were matured enough to think, but why you become like this? and stop pushing all the blame on me.

I love you. || 11:45 AM

valentine's day

Date : Monday, February 16, 2009

everyone keep asking me the same question "how's valentine's?"
wierd. and my answer is "alright". happy and not really happy at the same time.
people may be laughing at me, calling me a loser and stuffs. and asking why am i doing all this for?

haiss... my life is in a total mess. dunno what should i do. he says what we need now is time... but somehow i feel that he doesnt need me anymore, and he's just treating me like a friend.

furthermore, some of his friends doesn't like me anymore, and this will make him be in the center. they dont wish me coming back. maybe i should just shoo away from him. disappear someday.

friends asked me to give up and stuffs. or give a time limit. and if it reached the limit and still no progress, i should just moved on. thanks my friends for accompanying me through my emo nights.

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on the other hand, i'm happy because he's willing to spend the day with me. that's all! i'm a easily contented girl k! LOL. i just want someone to love me. is that so difficult? i'm stupid, they say. i can easily find guys that love me more than i do. why suffer like tat?

anyway, spent the day with pris and jeff. jeff is very lucky to have pris as gf, she bought him a gucci wallet lo! and pris is lucky too, he mad a album for her, which is so meaningful:) envy envy... this year, no gifts for me at all... the oni gift is that he spent the day with me. thats enuf:) we went to PS to have our lunch and actually wanted to watch movie, but its all full. and we head to MS, wanted to play bowling, and put the name on waiting list. and we went to singapore flyer. pris wanted to bring jeff to take the ride, but its quite ex, so we went to a cafe to sit and drink and chit chat. afterwhich, went back to MS for bowling. played 2games and dinner time at kenny rogers!!! and i'm the winner for both games:) haha! pro right... went to esplanade for some sight seeing and chats. after that, pris wennt to jeff house. he sent me home, and he went to club. i find my friends to accompany me emo.

and that night, i fell. bruises all over. LOL.
but who's there to pick me up? -no one- :(

pictures time!

pris and jeff at KFC

him and me

first gift of the day, from me to him.

gift exchange

me and pris

are we still the same?

envy them

score for the first game
A-jeff, B-pris, C-me, D-aj

score for the second game
A-jeff, B-pris, C-me, D-aj

cute huh

sweet

opening of second gift from me

tadaahh~ i first time do jigsaw puzzle

opening of third gift from me, again

album of memories:)

my elbow injury

shoulder injury

hip injury

I love you. || 1:47 PM

sadded!

Date : Friday, February 13, 2009

i failed my portfolio!!!!

FUCK!!! waste my time again...

gotta do for one week again... :(

I love you. || 11:16 AM

fun and crazy shots!

Date :

ENJOY!!!

I love you. || 12:45 AM

relieved!

Date : Thursday, February 12, 2009

FINALLY!!!!!

I'M DONE WITH MY PORTFOLIO!!!!!

congrats to myself. LOL.
left with printing tomorrowmorning!!!!
*YAWNS*

though my web is abit heavy. take quite sometime to load the photography section. design, alright, not very good or extremely good, just average. LOL. but i'm satisfied and happy with it! Hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow! and another thing to be happy about tomorrow is that i can see him!!! :) hahhaha!!!!

Nights everyone!!!

Hope miracle do happen on me =)

I love you. || 4:40 AM

chiong ar!!! & destiny/fate?

Date : Wednesday, February 11, 2009

firstly, have been doing my portfolio since 11plus in the morning... so tiring... and there's this stupid bug i cant fix in flash.... trying to find help now... problem is that i cant seem to unload the movie no matter what scripts i used.... hope everything will be done soon... and tomorrow will be FREE for me already!!! presenting at 2pm... morning still need to rush to sunshine plaza and print portfolio stuffs... =( but will be happy as tomorrow i'll get done over with it! finally can rest!!! hope i wont fail =P

Do you people believe in destiny or fate?
for me, i do believe in it. today morning i went to collect my passport. and my new passport number has our last time de anniversary date.... first 4digits some more lo.... which is for me to know and for u to find out:) hahha!!! and everytime i see the time or watch, i'll see that number too... and and and... car plates..... hahahah!!!! have been dreaming of you... when will be the day that you will return by my side?

deng dai~~

I love you. || 11:03 PM

two become one

Date : Tuesday, February 10, 2009

my yesterday and today seems like its just one day. phil, darling and me never sleep throughout the night. we were busy with our photoshoot stuffs for our minor. thanks phil for helping us and driving us around.

we started off to our first location at 5am. which is at pasir panjang wholesale market. next is botanic garden, followed by taka, then eastcoast park. this 3 places took us around 12hours plus.... so so tired.... BUT its fun doing it!!! hahax... we took crazy stuffs. like those mismatch kind. eg. wearing a pyjamas outside taka. LOL. everyone was looking, it was damn paiseh... BUT WE DID IT!!! cOol right.... LOL. the rest i shall not say.... prolly will post up some pictures when we are done editing... so stay tuned =)

waiting for my hair to dry now... den can sleep until midnight and i shall chiong my portfolio site. LOL. shit man!!! not done the design and scripting... haiss.... or prolly wake up early tml to do...
see how it goes:)

i miss you

I love you. || 7:20 PM

inside me

Date :

i'm trying to be strong, but i'm weak inside me.

i'm just like pris, she cant do without jeff.

and as for me?

i cant do without "you-know-who".

but but but.... i dunno about him...

i know i hurt him alot. and i really wish i can repent what i have done.

all i need is just one last chance...

human are really creatures that do not know how to appreciate until they lost it.

my heart is fragile, whenever u say about any other girls, disturbing me, my heart weakens...

please me merciful. dont sentence me to death. let me prove to you. once again.

i really hope. i really wish. i really wonder. i really want. i really love to.

all i need is just one last chance....

I love you. || 7:15 PM

my niece and me

Date : Sunday, February 8, 2009