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Love
You are my everything.
bonding =)

Date : Wednesday, September 30, 2009

yesterday had a fun bonding time with darling, phil and andrew.... we met up at yishun station and walked to chongpang beancurd... eat eat eat.... den we walked to safra... went in the bowling area.... but we did not play bowling... we played super munchkins!!! i'm the winner!!!! HAHAHAHHA!!! beginner's luck i guess... LOL. one game lasted for about an hour, maybe? den we walked to 800plus to eat supper... darling and i shared a bowl of tomyam you mian... chit chat chit chat.... until 2plus am den we decided to go home... finally get to meet up with some of my friends... LOL...

later i'll be heading down to British Council at Napier Road for my Speaking Test... hopefully everything goes smoothly.... never do any preparations for this... haha! JIAYOU SAMANTHA! YOU CAN DO IT! =)




quote of the day: enjoy while you can...

I love you. || 12:38 PM

speechless

Date : Tuesday, September 29, 2009

i've got nothing to say... just so speechless...
emo in the house. LOL
going to beancurd session and maybe munchkins! with darling, phil, and drew...

I love you. || 9:22 PM

my thoughts

Date : Wednesday, September 23, 2009

i don't like to see him angry, not because i'm afraid.

its just simply because seeing him angry affects me as well.
i'll feel sad and angry with myself when i made him pissed or angry.
i hate it whenever there is any second of unhappiness in him.
i just want to see his smiles and hear his laughters everytime...

i want to be the girl who can brighten his days...
i want to be the girl who will not always brings problems to him...
i want to be the girl who he can put his trust on...
i want to be the girl who will always be there for him...
i want to be the girl who he will always think of...
i want to be the girl who he'll share his ups and downs with...
i want to be the girl who he'll spend the rest of his time...
i want to be the girl who he changes for...

i love him when he is really sweet...
i love him when he makes me laughs...
i love him when he says sensible stuffs...
i love him when he is there for me...
i love him when he gives in to me...
i love him when he hugs me...
i love him when he kisses me...
i love him when he tells me he loves me...
i love him when he scolds me for the right reason...
i love him when he feels jealous...
i love him when he laughs...
i love him when he confesses his love for me...
i love him when he protects me...
i love him when he helps me finish up my food...
i love him when he plays with me...
i love him when he feeds me...
i love him when he jokes with me...
i love him when he shares problems with me...
i love him when he show concern for me...
i love him when he talks to me...

haha! think i can keep writing and writing.... anyway, i just love him. sis and her fiance asked me yesterday, why i love him. so this is why... anyway, we are already together for 5months 13days... and counting on... =) may our love last....

I love you. || 12:32 PM

sis birthday

Date : Tuesday, September 22, 2009

yesterday was sis's birthday, as well as a public holiday. mum, sis, sis's fiance and me, went down to town in the afternoon. shopped around. took photos. after that, the main celebration was dinner at Hard Rock Cafe... dad came and joined in.

Hard Rock Cafe really rocks! though the food is expensive, but the portion like american's size... LOL. and the ambience is just so great. there is live band! haha! maybe my birthday can go there too:) and and and, their service is VERY GREAT!!!! the fish and chips is like OMG!!!! very nice... haha! everything was just so nice!!!

took quite a number of photos, but its not with me now. so i shall upload some when i get them on my hands... haha!

i'm missing him so much again...

I love you. || 9:59 PM

good girl

Date : Sunday, September 20, 2009

today, i'm a good girl. stayed at home for the whole day... and finally i started on my IELTS practise material... finished the 4 sections of listening. kinda easy, but not very happy that i scored 32 out of 40. as i feel that listening should help me score more....

and i started on my reading passage section 1 and 2... quite happy with the results... left one more section for reading passage... after doing, i felt sleepy and went to sleep... LOL. read until i very tired lo... and it took me quite some time to understand what i'm actually reading, cause the passages 1 and 2 are so scentific and geographic...

and nua on bed until my whole body dun feel good... like going to sick like tat... LOL. anyway, yesterday i took mum's gastric pills. and GREAT! i'm fine now... haha!

anyway, tomorrow's sentosa is cancelled as i've checked the weather forecast that it is going to be cloudy tomorrow. and it has been raining these few days, so i rather not go and waste my time on sunless beach... haha! shall wait for the sun to back again, den i'll head down to the beach... or maybe i should stay fair, hubby likes my colour now... haha!

i feel that i think i can be independent and not always stick to him anymore. and i need not talk on the phone with him to get to sleep anymore. i can don't bother about him if he doesn't wants. i can don't be so sticky if he feels that he needs more space to breathe. haha! good and bad thing, i guess. and guys are weird. when you talk too much, they say you annoying. but when you quiet, they say you emo. and when you keep sticking to him, they say no freedom. but when you don't stick to him, they ask why is there a change. LOL.

i love you. i believe in us. we can go through everything together. =)

-UPDATED-
this is what hubby says to me before i signs out of msn to go to bed....

† ĸƎĻ¥!Ɲ †† ™ 10 day of alone says:
bye love u
miss u
muack
muack

†† ĸƎĻ¥!Ɲ †† ™ 10 day of alone says:
nite my lady

though it may means nothing to all of you, it means alot to me... so sweet, isn't it =)
guess i'll have a good night sleep =)


I love you. || 2:16 AM

loves~

Date : Friday, September 18, 2009

so sweet.... i love it!

i love the slipper! thanks hubby!

i'm just so loving it! haha!



anyway, i think i'm having gastric flu... these few days giving me problems. some times pain some times not. eat also pain, dun eat also pain. some times got appetite some times no. some times feel nauseous some times won't. i think i can write poem liao... haha!

tomorrow hubby going to the zoo with his friends. i'll be lonely at home. haha! shall do my practise materials... haven't started on practising my english... shit lah. ok, anyway, i've cancelled my oct TP and booked nov de... LOL. and it on sat, so it wont clash until my study nor work. =)

i'm so so so broke... no income... boring... trying to dig mum to give me allowance... since i am still considered as studying rite... haha! and this month never work, so no pay. so she should feed me... with money... haha!!!

p/s: gastric flu, please go away. you are fucking irritating and i hate you.

I love you. || 11:34 PM

dumbo

Date :

i'm such a dumb girlfriend. always asking dumb questions which gives the reason why i'm always getting scoldings from him. seriously, who in the earth will be happy to hear from your girlfriend asking him if she could go club with her friends, even though its all females. cause all of us knows what is going to happen in the club.

and stupidly i spoiled him mood by asking that. though he say go, but i know he is unhappy. and i dun wish him to be unhappy. and i ain't going with my friends already. i regretted posting the question to him. he was like so sweet and happy before i asked the question.

him: "goodnight. love you lots. muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks!"

me: "ok bye"

him: -paused- "den you no need say?"

and i just came up with my dumb question to spoil everything.

i was really happy before that. and before he leaves just now, he says "tomorrow we wear the same slippers." =) ain't he sweettt??? AwwwWWww~

i was so happy today. we went down to town. so glad that hubby was willing to go down town. had mosburger for lunch. and newurbanmale is having sales, where buy u buy 2 slippers u get 50% off. so he bought for me too... we got the same design. loves~ went to fareast to shop, wanted to get some clothings. but nothing caught my eye... around 7pm, went back to yishun... decided to catch a movie at 9plus "the ugly truth" so meanwhile, we had our dinner at "eighteen chefs". food was not bad though... movie was definitely thumbs up! happily walked home, chatted all the way. and chilled under my block for a while with a bottle of milk tea, chit chatted... happily sent me home, up the lift, the stairs. happily, sweetly and lovingly bid goodbye with warmth and secured hugs and kisses... happily texted me that he is home. happily telling me the time to meet and wake him up tmr... happily wishing me goodnight.... BUT stupidly me, just a question to spoil everything!

people out there everytime asking me for advice on their relationship... but can someone please tell me why am i a relationship freak when it comes to my own relationship? i'm always doing stupid things.... and i will change to be more independent and less bothersome....

I love you. || 1:27 AM

good girl

Date : Wednesday, September 16, 2009

today i shall be a good girl and stay at home... read up story books to improve my english and probably do abit of the practise materials... hubby is back in camp but will be out tonight:)

tomorrow i need to meet up with the principal to sign documents so as to register under MOE. wondering when will my results be out... i need them to register.... arghhh...

tomorrow might be able to head down to town with hubby. but i've not put in high hopes for it, because he says see how... haha! lazy bum. friday will be accompanying hubby to MA.

don't know why i have nothing much to blog about. nothing exciting is happening around me. my life is so boring... gonna find some excitement man! haha! JOKING

anyway, that day went to Rebel. it was fun! drank 2 tequila pop for the start and followed by chivas mixed green tea. started in zirca first. seriously i really cant enjoy zirca's music for long. so we went over to rebel... OMG! RnB ROCKS man.... and i saw my friend who is an MC there... he rocks too=) haha! and guess what? i love to club with hubby...

anyway, just now typed this post till here. so i shall continue now....

just now went to yishun with sis. ate long john silver and bought a duo cordless phone. and i changed my posb card... haha! happily back home to try out the cordless phone... to my astonishment, one of it is not working!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!

this means that i have to head back there to change it. stupid. so later i'll be meeting mummy to go yishun to change as well as to recontract her line and get new phone, mum's phone chui already. and now, i'm waiting for mum's call to set off from home... and from just now until now, i was helping sis with her work.... sian.... haha!

actually my plan for today was to do the english practise materials, but i have not done it... maybe later in the night i shall start doing... =) cannot be so lazy. i want to get the marks just one time. save money, save time.... hehe.

i miss my hubby~
i miss my clique~

I love you. || 12:11 PM

signed on to yishun gv

Date : Monday, September 14, 2009

have watched aliens in the attic and gamer... aliens in the attic is a nice show! i like it! i bet everyone who watched it likes it too... its damn funny and damn cool lo... as for gamer, action pact wise is nice, but dun really have the story line leh...

anyway, i'm getting closer to my exam and my new course!!! haha! SHIOK!

and as for my TP, i still not sure if i will cancel it or i will skip my starter kit. i'll see how it goes...

just now went to eat ajisen at ssc with hubby. hmmm... food was alright only...

going to sentosa soon for tanning!!!! i'm getting fair... i dun like!!! arghh.... haha!

bye!

I love you. || 6:35 PM

guinea pigs

Date : Wednesday, September 9, 2009

yesterday went to watch G-Force with hubby! it was a nice show!!! you guys should go catch it!!! they are just so smart and adorable...

today went to register my IELTS at British Council at Napier Road. sis fetched me. and went home to nap. then headed down for facial... after that met hubby at about 8plus... went for dinner... we ate zi cha at 848... hmmm... ordered hotplate beancurd, thai style chicken and kangkong. but the person served our kangkong to other ppl and replaced ours to dunno what veg but cooked in kangkong way. anyway, the food not nice... only the hotplate beancurd i think still ok. we are not satisfied with it lo... planning to eat zi cha tomorrow again! but at sembawang... hubby says its nice there. so yea... hubby is on leave for two days again =)

oh ya, and my course is not even one year course lo. and its not diploma, its advanced diploma. course will end at next year august! and i cannot fail, if not i need to pay money! jiayou! and my orientation is on 2nd oct:) and there's a starter kit programme from 5th to 16 oct, 8am to 7pm... so anxious!!!

whats wrong with blogger??? layout everything go haywire...

I love you. || 11:11 PM

happiness!

Date : Tuesday, September 8, 2009

fortunately, i passed my portfolio with a C grade! results not out yet, but i asked one of the lecturers to help me check.

and another happy thing is SP allows me to start my course in october though the registration for october intake is over. thanks! and i'll be considered under probation until my diploma cert is out!!! YAY!!!

and i will be starting work on 1st October, under PCF Chongpang. but i still dunno which branch she will put me in...

so happy!!! i can just start my course asap!!! and i'll need to take IELTS, as my english C6 and its not up to criteria. i'll need to get an IELTS 6.5 =) it has listening, oral, written, and speaking sections... LOL. planning to take it this month so i can faster get over and done with it! hopefully one time i will get 6.5 or higher! tmr i'll be going to to register for it!!! 300bucks lo! so expensive...

today's driving NEVER engine stall!!! haha! but but but... still not very good... jerking driving... haha!

hubby's booking out soon!!! going to meet him watch show later=)

bye!!!!

I love you. || 4:35 PM

i love you

Date : Sunday, September 6, 2009

just back from movie, i love you beth cooper. and dinner at 848 with hubby.
missing him so much now!!! arghhh! anyway, the show has humor and romance, those who like this genre can go catch it! =)

and i'm so in love with him!!!

and tmr is my interview! wish me luck!!! =)

I love you. || 10:40 PM

inside me

Date :

wondering..... am i being appreciated?

i feel so useless at times... and now i realise that i'm actually not good enough. be it inner or outer beauty. i've so many bad points.

dunno why i'm becoming more and more petty, gets jealous easily, affected easily, emotional, blah blah blah. why does it comes naturally to me when i put in more and more love? i dun wish to be like that. i hate myself being so petty and emotional and affected and jealous easily. i'm a girl who can take things easily. but why now i cant? what happened to me? where has that samantha gone to?

why does love and all these silly things come together? i want to love. i want to be a better person. i need to control myself from all these silly things so as to achieve happiness. i am a girl who can take jokes, right? so i should just keep it this way. and be happy! i know which are jokes and which are serious, i can differentiate. so why so affected by jokes... stupid me... love makes me lose my senses.... haha! :p

in the past, to me, i feel that you need not change for someone. the other part should just love you the way. but now, i feel that changing for someone whom you love isn't wrong too. both parties should play a part in building a stronger relationship. and what's more, you are changing your negatives to positives, so its for your own good too. and no matter what happens, both should stand together and solve it. this will build up the relationship too. though we haven't met any really difficult and serious problem, or maybe we had, we will be able to do it together =)

all i wish for is my hubby's love, heart and dote on me.
have your eyes and mind and heart just on me =)
and i know you have already placed your heart with me. loves~

I love you. || 1:37 PM

wants

Date : Saturday, September 5, 2009

i want to be a good daughter.
i want to be a good girlfriend/wife.
i want to be independent.
i want to be able to do what i want.
i want to earn more money.
i want to succeed in everything i do.
i want to be smarter.
i want to be slimmer.
i want to be prettier.
i want to be a better person.
i want i want i want....

i'm always wondering, why am i so always not up to expectations. am i really that bad? am i not a good daughter? am i a good girlfriend? sometimes i'm doubting myself, so what makes others to have no doubts in me? can people really change? i want to change and i will. but is it true that a leopard will never change its spots? but i am sure that i really changed, i ain't flirt and wont flirt anymore. i want to settle down and i like it this way. i am happy with my hubby now. hope to see us walking together till the end. i need to boost my self-esteem... and i need to be more mature... i need believe in you. you gave me your words, i'll always remember in my heart. loves~

tomorrow will be a better day =)

I love you. || 5:57 PM

dance flick

Date :

yesterday went for midnight show, watched "dance flick". hmmm... not really up to my expectation. and it is more of comedy to me lo... den the show is like a mixture so a few shows...

next to watch "G-force", "I love you beth cooper".....

oh ya, i'm having an interview on monday =) hopefully money coming again.... yay!

how i wish i can live with my laogong lo... i just love that kind of live whereby you can see your the other half when you first open eyes in the morning. then, eat breakfast together. go out together. watch tv together. come back home together. eat dinner together. do everything together. and end of the day, before closing eyes to sleep, its him that you see again:) hugging you to sleep every night... will this come true? haha! yes, keep on dreaming bah, samantha. haha!

my rantings now!!!
my family, i'm so pissed. still back to the old question. why has it always got to be me... and the one doing things for you all, gets what in return? i know, i shouldn't ask for returns. but can you all see my goods and not bads... why people will only say your bads... even if you do 10 goods, and only 1 bad, they will always remember the bad and forget the goods. haiss. why is it i'm always the one being nagged at and letting you to voice out your feelings. i dont mind you voicing out to me. but dun always arrow until me. i dun mind doing things for you all. but please, i dun request much, just let me do what i want. let me have peace in going out late. everytime i go out, my phone keep on ring and ring. its damn irritating you know?

and what about the person not doing anything? why all of you dont say her? why why why. just because i'm the youngest in the family and can be treated like that? i know you all treat me good also, but i'm 20 this year already. just let me do what i want. i know i have been given alot of freedom compared to sis. but you cant compared it like that. we are a difference of 4 yrs... if you want to compare, den nowadays kids in primary schools already can go out with friends, den what about me in primary school? its the generation you should see... please be more reasonable. i know this week i keep going out late. but you dont say i everyday go out late. den when i stayed at home, do you all say i never go out? answer is no. you all only keep remembering me going out late. and its only this week, cause i finally ain't working. den i have the time to play. next week, if i got my job, i wont be like tat anymore.

but why you all say she can go out cause she is working. so she needs to enjoy during weekend. den when i am working, why am i not allowed to? why why why. you all say you guys treat us fair. but is this really fair? you guys say no favoritism. but outsiders can see it clearly that dad treats her better than me. what about mum, i know you are trying to be fair. and you are fair. but in this world, there's no such thing as fair. no matter how fair you try to be, there is still a slight difference. and where is it? think. if its fair, will you keep complaining to me only? if its fair, will you not dare to say her.. if its fair, ...... sis gets her way. why? cause she is more fierce, mouth more sharp, more heartless... and heartless meaning that she can just dun bother about everything. and me? can i dun bother? if i also dun bother, kanna scold is me.

in conclusion, THE WORLD IS FUCKING UNFAIR!

k. enough of everything... let me say again, if one day i can't tolerate anymore, don't blame me for hurting you all. don't blame me for being a changed person.

I love you. || 1:00 PM

driving lesson 9

Date : Thursday, September 3, 2009

Arghhh.... my clutch controlling still sucks lo!!! haha! keep get scolding from instructor! =(
must chiong chiong chiong le!!! next week should be going in to circuit to try out le... haha...
hubby coming out soon:)

lost of blood -.-

I love you. || 5:06 PM

final destination 4

Date : Wednesday, September 2, 2009

OMG!!! this show is damn gore can... shiok! nice nice! though doesnt really have any story and everyone dies in the end... haha! though yesterday only spent a few hours with hubby, but its quality time =)

meeting him around in the evening after my appointment with sis... he's booking in tonight =( but he will be out tomorrow again =) haha! miss him so much!

hubby, i only wish that you can trust me and have confidence in me...

I love you. || 12:22 PM

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