i dunno whats happening to me. everything that i do seems to be wrong. my life is totally screwed up. assignments stress, work stress, relationship stress. i hate it when i am not with him. cause problems will aroused and i missed him alot. how i wish that i could stay over at his place during weekends. that would be good to replace back those days that i cant spend time with him.
i always never think of the other party. always like to say and not do. always repeat my same old mistakes. always never talk before going through my brain. always making him angry. having doubts on me, its also i created one. every problem is from me. sometimes i really wonder why i cant be a good gf. why is it that people in relationship will always tends to demand for more? why cant we just be contented? i wish i could be one and i hope to be one, but nothing seems to have changed. maybe i should just go and die. i'm just a stupid, want my way, lies, flirts, self-centered kind of gf.
can u tell me how can i change?
i'm really very confused in my brain. i really love him, but he don't think so. cause i've shattered his hope for me again and again. why am i so stupid. i really dunno why. maybe god is punishing me? who knows?
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