and he doesn't understands why i want to follow, its purely because i feel that "aren't couples supposed to spend special occasions together?" but nvm, he doesnt understands. its still back to the start, its my fault to let myself become in such situation.
quarreled before he left to meet his friends. so he asked me to think about how i want our relationship to be and what will i do. i dunno how to be better but i wish to be better. am i really such a fucking bad girlfriend? maybe i really am.
ain't a good girlfriend, ain't a good friend and ain't a good daughter. I'M A BAD PERSON!!!
really, one can never commit serious mistakes, people will remember them forever. i guess my life is going to be miserable. cause i've committed so many mistakes... maybe a new start of my life will be better?
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo
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UPDATE!
christmas eve wasn't that bad, cause i joined my friends at the hotel. we had fun drinking and playing king's card and chatting... =)
