my life story

emo saturday.,..

2011-03-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

feel that i'm just so stupid...
go ahead and go out with your friends all you want, without thinking about me first....
i will learn from you and don't u come and say me...
i'm tired of it... everytime being pang seh and in the end i've got nowhere to go...

humans are just making use of each other, now i feel that its just so true...
go find your friends for help when u need, since they are more important than me...
everything is just my fault... i have very strong motive in everything... i always purposely say no place to go so i can cling on to u and your friends... i do that because i want to spy on you... i do that because i want to get close to your friends and fling with them... i am a very evil person... i'm a liar... yes, that's what i am...

believing it or not, its still up to each person's thinking...

fucking bored staying home on a saturday night.... wasting my second last day of holiday.... arghhh... anyone free????

time flies....

2011-03-18T22:52:00.003+08:00

nothing special for the pass few days... wednesday i went for the interview at sim for my degree course... hopefully i can get into the degree and finished it within 3 and a half years... the person say longest can be up to 8years, depending on how many modules i take at a time since its a part time course... hope i can get in and able to cope.... and met up my my course mates in town to shop around....

yesterday went down to town again to get a bag and cardigan for bf... today went to get my hair permed with kimi... finally i've the courage and decide to perm my hair... haha! it only cost $80... though now the perm is still quite curl, which i dun really like... but i shall wait for a few days for it to loosen abit, which should be nicer and what i wanted...

one week just past so fast....boring sia... but also looking forward to see those children again! haha! didnt get to meet up with my clique... =( shall we go singing next week??? hehe.... bf is coping well with school, i guess? haha! hmmm... i've always stick to him, shall give him more air to breathe, like what he said... so ya, i should and give myself more space too, i guess....

BORING!!!!!!

one week holiday!

2011-03-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

having my one week holiday now!! yay!!! so i'm gonna spend them fruitfully... i wanna meet my friends!!! and spend more time with my bf since he starts school already.... anyway, monday i went back to work and went for my waxing after that...

on tuesday, which is today, i went for facial in the noon and went to find my bf in his school. after that, we went back to his place for dinner and slacked. had a great time with him... i felt the bond again =) its good that he is studying, coz he has more things to talk to me... he shares about what his lecturer says...

tmr, i'll be going down to SIM in the afternoon for my interview for the bachelor in ECE... after that will be meeting my sp course mates to have a catch up session =) and my dinner? not sure yet, anyone wanna meet me for dinner?

thursday, no plans yet....

friday, also no plans... but was thinking if my clique could meet up and gather for dinner. as i missed them alot and i missed those days where we were all free... we went to play board games and stuffs... it was so much fun! =)

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anyway, something i had in mind. i just dun understand why some ppl (girl) doesn't know how to see situation and timing. people's gf is just there and she wanted to feed him to eat sth... luckily he never want to eat that from her hands... and people's gf is there, she can hit his leg until so shiok... isn't that girl showing signs of flirting? stop being flirtatious towards my bf can... i know you are just that type of girl, but can you go find other people to flirt? can't you see my bf is not interested? -.- the sight of seeing you speak and walk and everything else, just makes me irk and wanna puke...

k, i'm done with my post today! =)

work.love.life.

2011-01-26T18:30:00.004+08:00

working life has been horrendous and fun. the K1s were really like monsters!!! i'm going to vomit my organs out soon. there is not a single day that i do not have to shout at them. nothing much to talk about work life. its just routine everyday... tired and exhausted... kids really do drain your energy...

as for my love life, seems like remains stagnant, there's still ups and downs. but recently, hmmm, from what i remember and my feelings tells me that its more of smooth than rough... not much of problems, but there are. hmmm... dun really know if you guys get what i say, but its quite difficult to describe in words. anyway, i'm kinda confused. sometimes i see future but sometimes i don't. so we shall just wait and see what happened in future. take step by step... dun wish to think so much anymore. and the my job has drained my energy, so won't have much energy to bother so much. that's why i like to have something to do to keep my mind occupied rather than having time to think so much and be paranoid.

something interesting happened this morning which makes me realised that actually i still am attractive. haven't been feeling high self-esteem for so long. thought that i am really that chui. anyway, in the morning, i while walking to my work place. there's a guy we cycled towards me and stopped in front of me. for that moment, i thought that he wanted to ask for directions. but he held out a paper and said, "小姐，可以跟你做朋友吗? (miss, can i be your friend?)" i was shocked and replied "no." then i walked off. so this incident kinda boost my lost confidence again! =)

anyway, i've rearranged my room on sunday. now, i have a queen sized bed, given from my sister and bro-in-law, as they have extra. besides that, my wardrobe is now in my own room. and the tv n dvd is on a wall shelf in front of my bed. the fridge remains. last thing, i'm waiting for my bro-in-law to give me the tv console for me to put my computer beside my bed!!! its so cosy and nice!! i love my room. it just makes me wanna go home and relax on my bed... hahaah!!! I'M LOVING IT!!!! =)

I havent been watching movies or going out with my bf, so nothing to write for this aspect...

1st day work!

2011-01-04T22:29:00.002+08:00

first day of work after the holidays was still fine, as there isn't any teaching involved. but my throat is starting to sore.... the K2s are still manageable as for the K1s about 10 of them still do not know how to write their names... and their discipline is still not there yet... other than that was fun! they are just so adorable... and the Nursery children are crying their lungs out... i was like fighting for my voice to be heard in my class... that explains why my throat is sore.. LOL

one boy, very chubby and eats alot. guess what he did? he bit off one corner of the eraser!!! OMG!!! LOL. that's funny but got to let him know he can't do that. looking forward to tmr!

and after work, i went to look for hubby... then we went to watch "Just call me nobody". it's a quite funny show but quite lame... LOL. there's a part where the girl actually was going to be married to the king. but she went back to find the cobbler guy... and i teared. its so touching lo... den hubby say i lame... LOL.

last day of holiday

2011-01-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

holidays ends here and work starts tomorrow!

actually, i'm kinda looking forward to starting work. i've been rotting for a long time, seems a bit like waste of time and spent lots of money... BUT have great time spent with hubby and family and my friends. even though, its just the few days of catching up with my friends, i felt great! they are always there for me. so my friends, please call me out more often... i need you guys back... =)

school term starts and i'll be taking K1 and K2 classes... everyone says its stress and tough to take two levels. but i dun have a choice, the decision doesn't lies in me. haha. so face it! and i'll tell you all about it when the stress really comes... haha!

i want to find evening jobs too, to earn extra allowance... any intros please let me know, preferably tuition for pri 1 - 3. thanks!

Happy New Year!

2011-01-01T03:32:00.003+08:00

wishing everyone a happy new year!!! hopes everyone will forget 2010's unhappiness and look forward to 2011's happy moments!!

New Year's Resolution:
1. Spend my days fruitfully
2. Less making my family and bf angry
3. Less jealousy
4. Don't wish to bother so much
5. Earn more money, save more and spend less
6. Find back my friends
7. More patience
8. Be happy
9. Less naggy
10. Less possessive
11. Exercise!
hopes that i can do all the above... i'll try... and maybe add more if i have.. LOL!

another thing is, why are some girls just so desperate to make friends? and what's more, making wanting to make friends with people who has gf? WTF! cant they just target single guys. just don't understand why... one thing for sure to say, not trying to boast or what. i've nv ask a guy "can we be friends? sorry if you mind." what do you want to get out from it? its weird if the attached guy says no but "wrong" to say yes, what will his gf think? just make me thinks that she is a fucking bitch... Oops! my bad... but maybe its just me being too concern on such things, or you can say afraid or possessive. anyway, its just my way of looking at it and my opinion.

emo christmas eve

2010-12-24T18:11:00.003+08:00

indeed, there isn't any miracle. so i'll spend my christmas eve at home, i guess. but i still don't get it. why do i have to see "v's" fucking face, cant my bf just bring me along? FUCK V man. now he's trying to show me what? FUCK HIM!

and he doesn't understands why i want to follow, its purely because i feel that "aren't couples supposed to spend special occasions together?" but nvm, he doesnt understands. its still back to the start, its my fault to let myself become in such situation.

quarreled before he left to meet his friends. so he asked me to think about how i want our relationship to be and what will i do. i dunno how to be better but i wish to be better. am i really such a fucking bad girlfriend? maybe i really am.

ain't a good girlfriend, ain't a good friend and ain't a good daughter. I'M A BAD PERSON!!!

really, one can never commit serious mistakes, people will remember them forever. i guess my life is going to be miserable. cause i've committed so many mistakes... maybe a new start of my life will be better?

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

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UPDATE!

christmas eve wasn't that bad, cause i joined my friends at the hotel. we had fun drinking and playing king's card and chatting... =)

FML!

2010-12-22T22:57:00.004+08:00

finally, i admit that my life sucks. everything is not what i want it to be. i thought everything is fine. but i was wrong. and problems all lies in me, i'm the cause of my "wonderful" life. if wasn't the mistake that i've done, i could have spent my christmas eve with my bf. but now, not anymore. because of what i did, his friends may not like me, so i cant join him when he goes out with his friends. yes, i brought this to myself.

so, i guess, this year will be my first year, counting down for christmas, without my bf. FUCK! i hate it! isn't every couple spend their christmas counting down together? why am i not? i wish i could join my friends, but all the girls who are attending are attached and their bf is around. the point is, i'll be bored and filled with envy... guess i shall spend my christmas eve alone at home... emo emo emo... silent night.... lonely night... FML!

and one question for you guys. will u ever call your best friend/"bro" that they are a dog cause they keep sticking on and accompany their girlfriends? just wondering if this kind of friends are good or evil?

work is starting soon in a few weeks' time... boring... not because of the job but because of the pay.. yes, FML again...

and i'm a girl full of jealousy and gets very paranoid. i hate myself i hate being like that. but i just cant help it. and i always dun use my brain to think before i speak. so i always piss my bf.. i ain't a good gf. i really dont know what i want in life. sometimes, i'm really confused and frustrated. i just don't know why. think i have some psychological problems. ha! FML once more!

i hate everything in life. sometimes i just wish to live this world so i could stop all these nonsense from me...

i just hope to spend my christmas eve, counting down with you...

Boo! i'm back!

2010-11-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since i've updated my blog... i think its like a dead fish now.. haha. lots of things had happened. happy and sad.

i've regretted what i've done wrongly. and now i hope this is a lesson learnt and things will get better and better. so far, things are better and i felt and realised that he really loves me alot. so i must never hurt him again. also, i need to cherish and appreciate everything that he did. just like how i loved to be cherished and appreciated. i love you laogong. i want to walk down the aisle with you...

however, i feel that friends are friends, who are they to be angry with me when my hubby forgave me and want me back? why should i see their face... wtf is this man...

as for working life, things are good with the kids and the colleagues, but feeling abit tired as there are alot of things to do. i need some motivation, like pay increment or better pay?? hehe. my K2 kids graduated and i will miss them... next year i'll be taking K1 and K2... hopefully i won't die... haha!

next, i'm so looking forward to 4dec... i'm going to BKK with hubby and his mummy! yay!! its been so long since i go overseas... i want to shop till i drop! wahahaha!!!! broke liao... -.-

i realised one more thing, which is i'm getting more and more sticky to my hubby. i feel that i need to see him everyday, if not i'll feel uneasy...

and my friends... i want to meet them more... but sometimes, i feel so left out... but its my fault for not joining them lah. so cant blame them.. haha! =)

future plans? hope to discuss with you when the time is right... i'm already thinking already, what about u?

End and start

2010-09-16T18:53:00.002+08:00

its the end of my professional diploma.... and the start of my full time working life... had been taking nursery class in the afternoon... omg!!! they are cute but some are just very playful....

today we brought the K2(s) to the Health Zone. it was my first time there too. haha... wasn't what i expected, but the talk was not bad. didn't get to play and interact with the stations there as there wasn't enough time for us to do so, sadly. and i feel that i'm eating alot these days as compared to going to school for studying. i dun wish to gain back those weight that i've lost!!! =( need to take note of my diet... LOL.

haven't been seeing my guy for quite a number of days... no choice, coz our timings just don't meet... hopes everything goes well.... =) i have also applied for my bachelor programme in uniSIM. hopefully i will be able to get the Jan2010 intake... of not i have to wait till Jul2010... i dun wish to stop studying for a long time. coz i will not feel like studying once i've stopped.

stressed up!

2010-08-26T20:43:00.002+08:00

last Sunday, went to watch Step up 3D and Expendables with him =) its been a long time ever since we watched a movie. haha. moreover, Yishun GV is renovating so that explains why we haven't been watching movies. haha. yes, we are lazy to travel... haha!!!

went for K-singing with darling, minyi, kenneth and zhao on Tuesday. it was fun! and i haven't been doing such fun things together with them already. adding on, i've never sing k with them at all. haha! so yea, that was the first time singing with them =) more to come k? hehehe.... i miss my darling!!!! darling!!! i update because of you leh... touched not? LOL...

okay, YOG break doesnt seems to have any break... though no school, but still a lot of assignments. maybe its my management of time not that good, always till the last minute then rush. but work load is alot during this YOG break... have so much things to do with the kids, where got time sia... poor children, have to rush their work too... my head is splitting soon... so many things to do in such little time... arghhh....

one more week to go!!! girls, lets all chiong and jiayou together!! =)

yesterday i went to NBSS for my English oral... i just realised that i have already left sec sch life for 5 years and time really flies... anyway, it feels weird going back to sec sch for oral.. i haven't been doing such things for so long... haha. and i am so lucky that among so many candidates, i'm the last one! thanks to my mum for giving me Samantha as my name... haha! i told her next time i would choose names start with A for my kids, so they do not need to wait for so long... LOL. anyway, i was slightly nervous and my reading wasn't very smooth at first... and for the picture talk i felt that it was quite alright. as for conversation, after i left i felt that i could have did better and talked much more points, which i couldn't thought of it at the moment... arghhh... wasted... but too late also, so i shall start to do my assessment and prepare for my English papers in October...

i missed those days....

2010-08-16T22:00:00.002+08:00

everything is as routine.... only good thing is that we have the YOG break in for studying, so only working half day... however, assignments piling, never ending, one after after... but!!! good news is that we are graduating in 3 weeks' time!!! i'll miss you girls!!! hope we'll stay in contact after the course... haha!

was wondering, why guys and girls really dun feel and think the same way? is it because we girls are more sensitive and emotional? things are not the same, why girls can feel it but guys dont? we used to enjoy night life together, what about now? is the problem really lies in me? yes, i used to not say so much, but now i say alot. but do you guys know why girls have such changes? dun blame it on us. it always take two hands to clap. have you guys ever think, if you all never do things for us to be able to have something to say, will we say so much? if you all never changed, treat us the same as before, will be feel the same way? NO! we wont.. understand?

i really wish that i could freeze time. so that we could always stay in happy moments. but we need to grow from mistakes too. so ya, thats the creation that we are supposed to go through. face it, then! haha... lame shit! haiss.

i only wish that you could put me before your friends. and not when you dun have their company den willing to accompany me. not to leave me at home to rot while you are enjoy outside.

remember those courtship days? where we used to hang out with your friends together. when we spent late nights together. when we enjoy together. when u never reject me when we took lots of pictures(stupid or nice) together... when we.......... where are all these moments? yes, they aren't gone, they are in my memories.... but can we carry on to build more of these memories?

i could only say out all these in my blog, cause i know you'll never visit here.... its good and bad... and i want and dun want u to see it... cause we would quarrel again, if you read them... and i'll have no where to voice out my feelings then i'll lead to having depression.... i want u to see it is because i hope one day you will realise all these things... but to choose from both, i'll rather you not seeing it...

anyway, sorry for my emo-ness, PMS now.... so please be understanding!!! =)

july updates

2010-07-25T21:34:00.002+08:00

back here to update what i've missed out...

celebrated hubby's 21st last weekend at his place. it was quite a fun celebration. after that we head down to hard rock to have our dinner and we watched predators. the show was nice!!! =) after which headed back to yishun and met up with a few of them and slacked.

also, over the weeks i have watched quite a lot of shows which i cant remember what i've not updated. so the most recent one was Ong Bak 3. that day was the most memorable one. LOL. show was just alright but the guys said it was suck. haha. anyway, after the show we were outside yishun gv and got screened by police who were in civi clothings. they ask if anyone got any case before and he asked me if i had run away from home before. i was like huh LOL. and hubby asked him "sir, you guess how old is she" and he replied "18?" LOL and we said i'm already 21 this year. LOL. den he said "so you are the da jie among all of them? coz you are the only girl mah." den i replied " huh? what da jie, no la... all same age all are friends..." LOL damn funny lah. after all these commotions we head down to eat beancurd and they continued to lan shop. LOL.

yesterday went to serchin's chalet,. it was nice meeting up with them again. i missed all of them so much. however, feeling quite lonely. cause all the girls had their bfs there. LOL and i'm so lonely lah... =( but had a great time there. we had pizza for dinner. played wii. played rock band. LOL a great gathering and chill out session! loves them! when is the next one??? hehe....

now, i'm here in chambers(lan shop) with hubby, vic, kenny and jiahao... just finished dinner at yishun swensens with my family. i treated this time round as i got my bonus. so yea. haha. not alot though... =)

school reopens

2010-07-03T14:30:00.002+08:00

school and work started for a week =) nice seeing my children and course mates again =) my life is back to work and study and home, on weekdays. only first few nights was quite tough to turn back my body clock. LOL. now, its ok le...

so, i guess i have nothing much to talk about leh. anyway got to drive the car whenever out with my family, i think i'm getting better at it =) haha!

today hubby gg to his friend's wedding dinner. tmr he's gg in Malaysia with his friends to celebrate one of their birthdays. home alone for me then =(
friends!!! ask me out leh... LOL

birthday present in advance!

2010-06-23T21:32:00.002+08:00

woohoo~ finally managed to psycho my mother to get me a laptop for my 21st birthday. haha! its like more more than 3 months in advance la! LOL. anyway, the laptop i got is Lenovo Y460. its very reasonable. and installment 36months with 0% interest. haha!

so yea, happy that i've got a new laptop =) up next, i'm waiting for iphone 4, hubby and i wanna change!!! and i bet a lot other people out there also want to change. iphone 4 is so so so amazing!!!! haha!

hubby had been staying my house for almost the whole of past 2 weeks. haha! shiok! love him being around me. haha! but school is starting soon. good and bad. good is i get to see my kids! bad is loads of stuffs coming up for me. stressed!!! practicum, assignments, work, etc etc. no time for dating again. haha! but good thing is my course in finishing in the first week of september. very fast will past de =) haha

movie crazy!!!

2010-06-14T23:50:00.003+08:00

last week we have been watching shows after shows. OMG!!! june has a lot of nice shows man! kays, we've watched the karate kid, she's out of my league, the A-team. one more show that i have not watched is killers.... i wanna watch!!! anyway, all three movies are thumbs up! and the best out of those three is the A-team. u guys have to really catch this show! =)

saturday, celebrated kenny's 21st! so long nv see my A2 peeps le! missed them loads! haha. enjoyed talking to them, nothing really changed much. so ya, more meet ups please.... haha! =)

other than movies like nothing else that we did le leh. haha. yesterday we went amk, gathered with zijian and jasmine. we went to sing K-box after dinner. and went home at about 12plus. enjoyed myself! =) i love to hang out with all of them =)

today, he didnt go for work, accompanied me the whole day. stayed at his place. we slept, watched drama, watched tv, eat, blah blah blah. love him lots! =) he's at my place now, staying over =)

good news!

2010-06-08T22:15:00.001+08:00

i finally passed my TP!!!
YAY!!!

i've had enough!

2010-06-06T19:10:00.003+08:00

oh please, i've had enough of all these!!! you all are control freaks!!! and say the older i get the more insensitive, unmannered and rude i am. wtf! why dont you ask yourself why i've changed? you all are the cause to my change.

hello~ i'm already turning 21 this year and why do i still have to take your orders? i have already been controlled and i've tolerated all these years. i've had enough! i want my freedom!!! i dont want all these restrictions! i want my night life. why cant i go home late? i went out late of course go home late mah.

i know, as u said, u all care for my health, and gm keep nagging at you. but i'm sorry, i need to fight for myself. i'm turning 21, as i said, and all my friends, including those unexpected ones, their parents dont nag or restrict them anymore. if u all continue like that, dont blame me for the change. you may think this is rebellious, but i'm not yet showing rebellious, i just want fairness.

i work and study on weekdays, so the only days i have that can enjoy are weekends, of course it will be late nights. and u insist that i go out late every night. please, do u want to have a punch card system to prove? and now, finally i having holidays for work, and soon studying break. so, definitely i will enjoy while i can right.

if i dun enjoy now while i am still young and energetic, den wait until i'm old and tired? please dun deprive people of their freedom when u yourself dont have any life to enjoy!

holidays ahead!

2010-06-03T20:56:00.002+08:00

everything is going well so far... we have watched "Shrek" and "Sex in the city 2"... nice shows =) LOL.

work place having june holidays but we've got to go back for this week and 2 days on the last week of holidays.

study side is having term break soon too.. one more week to go... however, got assignments to do =(

plans or no plans?

lately mummy keep nagging and nagging... everything also want to nag. i really buay tahan lo... haiss...

i love weekends!

2010-05-30T18:11:00.004+08:00

ok! wow, i was so busy until i didnt have time to blog for a week. LOL. k, last sunday went for jasmine and jian's wedding. it was fun! everything went well. her gowns were nice!

after that sunday, every week days, was my routine again. this week, we have vesak day celebration. was rather busy and tired. after everything on friday, met up with hubby, justin and belinda. we went to eat and after that went OCC to play number ball. around midnight, went to AMK and meet ky and ginnie, for a show. we watched "The Prince of the Persia". it was very nice!!! after the show, we went back home. hubby stayed over at my place.

on saturday, which was yesterday, i woke up at 9am, while hubby was still sleeping. i brought my grandma to the polyclinic to get her wound dressed. what happened to her was that she went to disturb snowy while she was sleeping. she dragged her out under the bed just to feed her food. of coz snowy will bite her right... haiss... at polyclinic waited for about an hour and a half. and surprisingly, saw yingkhiam's parents. LOL. after that went home and acc hubby down to meet justin, ky and ginnie for lunch at my house downstairs. after eating, off they went to work. after work, i went to his house and waited for him to come back home from work. and i fell asleep while waiting. after which, joseph, justin, hubby and me went bungy to give zheting a surprise for his birthday. we bought cake and went down. he was so shocked and touched. LOL. his face was like tomato. after that a lot of other people came down too. den went down to hougang plaza to play number ball. after playing, they sent me back home and they went home to prepare and set off to malaysia. i dunno which part they are going lah. LOL.

so today, boring -.- went for driving and stayed at home =( hopefully, they come back earlier, so i can meet him. =)

holidays coming, but assignments due soon too... haha!

busy weekend

2010-05-22T16:56:00.002+08:00

every week will only get to see him on weekends. so i'm always looking forward to it. i've got nothing much to say about my weekdays. everyday its just a routine. go to work, go to school and back to home. haha. but on tuesday i brought my grandma to ICA and collect her passport. didn't book appointment so we waited for about one and a half hour -.-

yesterday, was friday! yes! met up with him and the group of people. went to justin's place and had steamboat for dinner cum supper! LOL. we went to get the food only at eleven plus in the night. the guys prepared the food and we started our steamboat only at twelve plus. yum yum. makan makan until one plus two. and pack up. so i washed up all the things and ginnie helped me. after that i mopped the floors... tired... and we slacked. i reached home at about three plus four. and knocked out -.- haha! cause the night before i only slept for four hours, was rushing for my assignment.

ok, talking about assignments, two assignments cleared! two more on hand and have more to come... wahahha!!!! come on assignments! i'll fight with you guys. haha!

though last night was feeling abit weird in my heart cos of some things, but it was my nonsense again i guess. haha. i'm fine now! i really have to learn to take things easy man... haha. anyway, i'll try not to blog about unhappy stuffs coz my blog is a happy blog!!! haha. -crap-

tonight i guess we should be going to jian's house to eat again. haha. coz tmr is his big day! haha. and i will be spending my night at ginnie's place. early in the morning tmr, we'll be going down to jasmine's place. we are the sisters of hers... haha. so excited. want to see how the guys get played by us... wahahahaha!!!! i love to see people getting married. i feel so happy. tmr will be a busy day! =) will blog more about tmr's happenings when i'm free next week. haha!

late nights!

2010-05-18T17:58:00.002+08:00

weekend is fun! had haircut together with him. went town. went henderson wave. went round and round in the car.

parents were annoying. keep nagging say i go until so "early". hate it. its like i've already very little time to spend him and frens. yet, they still keep saying like that. mum say him also. make until people also dun feel like bringing me out already lo. den i no need meet him le lah. sometimes i feel that they just dun want me to have bf, they are selfish, they want to keep me at home. arghhh...

yesterday went for my NYP graduation. it was damn boring. i knew no one there as my batch should be last year. LOL. luckily there was trudy beside me. LOL. if not i will really rot and have webs le.... -.-

i'm feeling better now. i can dun need to bother so much about him le. dunno why the sudden change, but hope i can be like that all the way, so i'll feel much much much better. i feel that he also doesn't restrict much, like i tell him i go where do what he will reply "ok", unlike in the past. is this good or bad?

emptyness

2010-05-14T01:02:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling very emo now... maybe partly its the cause of pms... though it might be something small. but i feel that he is getting further and further and has lesser and lesser time for me. i'm afraid that his feelings will get lesser and lesser... he see his friends more than seeing me per week. my weekends are for him, but not his. even if i try to persuade him, he is still so firm about his decision. wherever his friends jio, he will always be ok with it. but if its me, he will reject. i fucking dun understand it.

are friends really more important than girlfriends/boyfriends?
some might say yes and some might say no. well, actually it depends on individual's perception.

in the past, friends are more important, until i met him. he was still serving NS, so my weekends are precious to meet him, eventually i feel that boyfriend should be priority. maybe i was stupid. but now, i thought after ORD will have more time for me. but, i was wrong. he has more time for his friends.

i wish my heart is numbed. i dun like this kind of feeling. i dun want to feel anything. i wish i were like him, can take things easy. i wish i wish i wish. wtf is the point for wishing.. i have to do it! i want to love myself more. i need to act like i'm ok with everything.

nonsense of the month!

2010-05-11T21:28:00.002+08:00

have been PMS-ing for the past few days. wasn't at the right state of mind. i hate it when every month like that. i don't like being emotional and paranoid.

lots of things in my heart. just cant seem to get them out. i hope and want to see future in us. but my stupid nonsense, its not i dun want to stop but i cant help it. i tried to keep inside. but it feels like shit! so i have to get them out. guys always say PMS is not an excuse for girls to be a nuisance. but they dont know and wont know that kind of thing. they cant experience and wont understand how we feel. or maybe i dunno how to deal with it.

I MISS YOU A LOT!
I NEED U A LOT!

emo night

2010-05-08T23:55:00.001+08:00

past two days were happy...

now, i'm feeling tired...
i wonder i'm living my life for who...

a week's update

2010-05-04T17:37:00.002+08:00

ok, lets see what i've done for the past one week...

last tuesday, went to watch The Bounty Hunter with hubby and justin. after that met up with ky and ginnie and went to OCC to play bowling. and as usual, after bowling we played number ball. and went home late. kanna nagging -.-

wednesday, it was the release of IP Man 2, did online booking on tuesday night. the response was damn good can! especially in cathays, seats were filling fast, so in order to get good seats, we booked midnight show. after watching such a nice show, we went home and sleep! people we went for the show are me, hubby, ginnie, ky, justin and yk... =) kanna nagging again... -.-

friday, we went to watch Iron Man 2, which we booked on thursday. the same 6 people went to watch... after watching we head down to OCC again, i think, if i never remembered wrongly. LOL. that is the usual hangout place. haha! till late den went home... kanna nag nag nag again... -.-

saturday, hubby and justin accompanied me to qinghui's birthday!!! yes, its on labour day... almost everyone is celebrating for her. LOL. after everything ends around 9plus 10, we went down to Loyan Tua Pek Gong to pray... after that we head down to OCC again, yes again! LOL. ky and ginnie joined us. i love OCC chicken wings!!! LOL. again, we played till late and reached home late... what else but naggings? -.-

sunday, went for dinner with my family at victoria street. after that met hubby and justin at about 10, the came to pick me and we head down to the K-Gardens at serangoon gardens. met ginnie and ky for k-session. hmmm.... though its cheap there, but i dun like the environment, the atmosphere and everything la... LOL. after that, ginnie went back, and the rest of us went down to hougang plaza to play number ball. coz it closes at 5.30am. i was able to stay late coz monday no need to work!! and we play till 3plus 4, then went to eat. reached home about 5plus. saw dad, he was going out to work. LOL. Oops! expected to be nagged and scolded! -.-

see, everyday, i'm being nagged. but i dun wish to care. they just have to get use to it. why some parents will understand, but not mine? i just want to enjoy my weekends, why cant they understand? they say i no need go till so late mah. but what time i go out and i want hang out with my frens mah. please, nowadays kids already go out till very late le, whats more i'm turning 21 already! i'm sick of being controlled for YEARS!!! cant you all just let me do what i want? its not like i'm doing anything bad or what. i just want to enjoy my life, cant i? and you all always say "enjoy not enough ar?" please lo, where got people will be tired of enjoying one. you all cant enjoy, so dun deprive me of enjoying... hellooo, i'm still young leh... dun enjoy now den wait until old meh... and one more think, i dun like it when you force me to go home or misusing your authority. for example, "I say come home now." or "you better come back by 1am." please... this might be using for the past years that i've been tolerating and listening and giving in. but now, i'm tired of it, the more you control me, the more i wish to go against it. so if i become rebellious, its not all my fault. you all are to be blamed partly. so please, be more understanding can.... thank you....

anyway, today i went to facial after my work and went to nyp to collect my graduation gown. and now i'm back home. tomorrow we are having a field trip, bringing the k2 kids to the Singapore Philatelic Museum. so excited!!! my first time experiencing this kind of thing =)

boring tuesday afternoon

2010-04-27T15:25:00.003+08:00

today experience something new with the children, which is fire drill... haha! think back, usually i'm the children who are queuing up and listening to the teacher. but now, i'm the one who is taking care of the children and giving instructions. =) anyway, got so much things to do, everyday not enough time.

and now, i'm home doing nothing cause no lesson for tuesdays! so boring.

am i really being too demanding? is it really wrong for me to want to meet and tag along? am i really becoming more and more aunty-like and ask alot? am i really controlling? am i really that irritating? am i really that annoying? am i really that stupid?

what the fuck is wrong with me? i really dunno. maybe i should just shut my mouth up and bother about less things. if only it was as easy as saying, i've already succeed in doing that. i've always wanted to care less and ask less. my mind is set, but always cannot successfully do it. i just dunno why. can someone answer to my question? what can i do?

y cant u just understand that i have no ulterior motive. the only motive is just to see you. the reason is as simple as i miss you. that is why i always insisted to meet you when i feel that it is possible.

first time!

2010-04-26T20:17:00.002+08:00

one of my lecturer said, we should always learn something new everyday... and.... i did something the first time during the past weekend. guess what is it??? answer is..... my first time holding a mike singing infront of 6 people! omg!!! went too party world with, hubby's 3 secondary school girl friends(kimfen, tingting, belinda), yk and justin. they force me to sing.... -.- quite fun actually, didn't know that until last sat. LOL. after that we slacked at 925 for like 3hours, and i was kinda bored as their topic were on their past experiences and memories during their secondary school times...

that morning when we go to sleep, i had a bad dream. i know this may sound stupid, but some of you have experience the same as me. i dreamt of us quarreling and i was crying in my dream. AND really crying while sleeping. and he just sleep like a pig. haha! watched Date Night, and i find that it was a nice show! =) i want to watch The Bounty Hunter, IP Man2, etc etc... alot nice shows coming out this week!

yesterday went to SSC with hubby and justin for dinner at Astons. after that, we shuttled bus to yishun and then to OCC. reached there at about 9pm and we started playing number ball. not long, yk joined us. about 11plus, ky and ginnie came too!!! missed her sia... haha! and the guys played number ball while ginnie and me played pool. and ginnie, i never forget our promise, which is go and sing K... LOL. will meet out one day to shop for clothes for jasmine's wedding and singing!! =) and we played till 2plus, and i reached home at about 3am and SLEEP.

woke up this morning so tired -.- drank coffee after my work, and in school. 2 cans in total. which can totally keep me awake. BUT my brain is still not functioning! LOL. drank papaya milk too... i said i wanna sign package with the fruit juice stall. everyday got go school must drink it! i want see if it shows results!!! LOL. hopefully it does.... but anyway, its actually really nice to drink la... LOL.

i'm starting to be paranoid. CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT!!!!

maybe i should just be a little less initiative, less sticky and less insisting? =)

luck

2010-04-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

nothing much interesting to blog about. just that yesterday's 4d i nearly strike! arghhh... 1st prize was 9425 and i bought 9421!!! and 3rd prize was 8480 and i bought 0848!!!! really no luck leh... =(

cause tuesday midnight i went to meet hubby and the guys at 848 for supper. after that when leaving the place i stepped on dog shit! and i say i must buy 4d. so i anyhow guessed the numbers... but no luck leh... hahaa

anyway, school started for a few days already. so far so good, cause assignments are not out yet. but we do have an ongoing one, which is Independent Study Project. this will last us throughout the whole term. somehow, school starts is quite energy draining.. and i need to go and buy english assessments to do and improve my english. coz i've registered for private O's... need to get at least a B3 if can get A2 better still. haha! but think quite difficult lah. from a C6 want to jump so high. LOL.

tomorrow is friday already! YAY-NESS! can get to meet my hubby! =) and friends....

I MISS YOU LOADS!!!

what a fast weekend!

2010-04-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

weekends again passed so fast. but it was a fruitful one!

saturday evening went to kenneth's 21st birthday at his place. met up with the clique and chatted. i missed those days man... haha! but no worries. this year alot of meet ups, cause all having 21st birthday! haha! after that went to meet hubby and slacked for awhile before heading to my house.

hubby slept over on saturday night, practically accompanied me the whole till monday 3am. sunday we went to eat dinner with my family at night, as we were celebrating my grandma's birthday. after eating, we head down to OCC and meet the group! linda and ginnie were playing bowling and i joined them for the second and third game =) and we ended our game and went down to look for the guys and jasmine. they were playing number ball. at around 12am, most of them left home, remaining were yk, justin, hubby and me. and we continued playing till about 2plus. and i cannot tahan le, i stopped playing and napped at the seat. i think they played for a few more games before leaving at about 3. No cabs as usual, so hubby and i walked back to my house.

so i've only slept for like less than 4 hours!!!! darn tired can! today woke up late and almost late for work. today is the start of my school, can see all my course mates and at least i have some thing to do than rotting at home. first day of school was ok, but tired, nearly feel asleep at times. LOL.

i tell myself to BE PREPARED FOR THE ASSIGNMENTS!!! and planning to start my assignments once i get them on hand. haha! hopefully i can do so =)

i love to spent my time with hubby! <3

re-arranged my room

2010-04-17T16:13:00.002+08:00

what a busy day! haha! re-arranging my room since 12plus... haha! sweep, clean and mop too! i've got bigger room space now!! haha! but not totally finished. coz sis still got alot of her things here. next week gonna pack grandma's room and should be shifting my wardrobe to my room and the piano to grandma's room...

grandma keep nagging at my re-arrangement. cause my bed is beside the window. then she keep saying that the news or what got say before that cannot sleep near the window. cause when got lightning and thunder will be dangerous, scared i kanna strike by lightning. haiya, but i dun care lah. i want it this way =)

today is a better day =) i want to be more matured and understanding!

random

2010-04-16T13:37:00.002+08:00

another day going to be wasted... going to rot for the whole day and night... haha! my school's starting on monday and i have yet to enjoy enough... Awwww....

today i ate two kaya buns for my brunch =) on diet leh... haha! no lah. but somehow i lost a few kg... hehe! hopefully they lost at the correct parts. LOL. my boobs are already small le, so more fats accumulate there please... and my thighs maybe can lost some fats there... haha! k, i'm just blogging rubbish, coz i've nothing to blog about. my life is just so damn boring...

hmmm... today i played at the dramatic corner with the children. i was wearing the doctor's costume and pretend to be a vet. they had fun playing with me and i had fun playing with them too =) as for my class, i set up a zoo, the animals are masks which are drawn by some children, and there is a zoo keeper's costume. heard from the principal and the chinese teacher that my children had played it very purposefully. they had acted out and played like they really were into it. my children are just so imaginative=) haha! looking forward to see them play on monday. today mother tongue class, so no chance to see my own class play.

mood swings =)

2010-04-15T13:20:00.003+08:00

feeling abit emo now... why fairy tales doesn't exist? i thought everything would be fine after a night's sleep.

no worries. i'm fine here. my children are my antidote. seeing them just makes my day =) they are really little angels. though sometimes they really make you angry and test your patience, they are still adorable and makes you smile =) everyday i will feel happy when i see them, no matter how down i'll be. i really love working with children. because they are the most real creatures in the world. they are pure and innocent and they won't be angry with you for long and will definitely forget about it. children are really so wonderful! =)

toasted a pizza and eating it now... yummy!!!

wierd, i don't sing K but i feel like going... HAHA!!! go there to sing my lungs out and FA XIE a bit... BUT, say only lah... haha! my words are always empty... talk cock only...

dunno why, not so looking forward to this week's weekend.

changed blogskin

2010-04-14T19:22:00.003+08:00

school hasn't started. lately have been nua-ing at home after work. humans are real funny. whenever we are stressed we wish to have more time to relax. but when we are rotting, we want to have something to do to pass time. LOL.

i guess i should start blogging back again. to make my blog ALIVE and to record down my life. haha. i miss my blogging times. this is the place where i can voice out my everything, my feelings, my happiness as well as sadness.

recently, last saturday, it was our 1st year anniversary. so glad that we have come to a year already, though it really felt like it has been longer than a year. its definitely, we have gone through ups and downs. but i guess it makes us know each other better and love each other more. for me, i can feel his love for me, he's doting on me, care for me and love me more and more. he also tried hard to control his temper on me. i really appreciate and touched by all these things that he has done. he showed me that he is loving me more.

Nevertheless, of course, i'm loving him alot too! totally obsessed with him! HA! i'm missing him like crazy everyday. whenever weekend i have the chance to meet him, i feel so so so happy! how i wish i can stick with him 24/7. =) anyway, we went down to Hard Rock Cafe for dinner that night, wanted to catch a movie, but the timing that we want for the show is fully seated. so, yea, went back to his place and slack for awhile. after that headed down to OCC to meet justin, yk and meiqi. played pool with hubby, from my memory i've only played with him once or twice, just him and me.

sunday, had dinner with my family at sembawang fish head curry. after that, we went down to OCC again, yes again. met up with ginnie, ky, justin. jian went home after fetching them there. we had a game of bowling, yk came and joined. so we had another round before it closes at 12am. after bowling, we went to play billard, number ball. haha! had fun with them, and the chicken wing there is damn NICE! go there confirm must order and eat one. haha!

i miss my hubby alot!!! i love my weekends, course can spend with him. but why do happy moments passed so fast? must wait till friday den can see him. one week only see him for 3 days... where got enough... =(

i love my laogong!!!! love him loads!!!

REST

2010-03-15T18:47:00.002+08:00

i've been waiting for so long for this day... it has finally came!!! whahahaha!!!!
finally can get to rest and post something on my blog... it has really became dead -.- lol

school term ends, having about a month of holiday. but still gotta work, this week having one week holiday. people always think that being a teacher is relax and easy. true if its talking about teaching, we are doing a lot more stuffs before lessons or term starts!!! every theme have to change the corners, flash cards, rhymes, etc... today went back for meeting and doing up of the corners and stuffs... i'm left with the dramatic corner, which is the headache on... cause the theme is on insects... but no worries, i'm so smart to have idea... hahaha!!!! planning to so up some habitats and insect puppets. its really a tough theme to make the dramatic corner very interesting... hope it works!!!

anyway, i've been going out with hubby's group of friends... party world, movies, sentosa, talk cock... lol. will be seeing MY friends soon!!! on wanjun'S 21st birthday!!! have been busy doing my sis's montage video for her wedding... done with the wedding and courtship photos, i'm left with the baby photos!!! FINALLY!!! and my laptop is lag like siao... the file too big liao, i think not enough RAM. lol.

next, for my course, left with the reflections of the lesson plans to finish up!!! to be handed in on 22nd mar... AND.... i've got a few months of clothes not ironed!!!! arghhh!!!! hate it man.... now its really like mount everest can!!!! SIAN! how i wish i can hire a part time maid to help me iron... any intros??? lol

mc

2010-02-04T23:39:00.002+08:00

mc for 2 days... my head is splitting man.... really cannot tahan... too many assignments and too little time... not enough sleep also... i'm looking like a zombie now... OMG!!!

tmr going to shop for new year clothings with hubby, at bugis... finally, managed to find some time to shop...

nothing much to update about lately... just rushing assignments and assignments and assignments... work wise, got lots of things to do also... its just too little time.

gonna try to rush all my assignments before new year... HOPEFULLY it can be done... but it just seems impossible....

rojak updates

2010-02-01T19:36:00.002+08:00

hmmm... on the surface, it looks fine, but somewhere in it there will always be the cut. i'll try my best to sew it up. but it will still have the scar no matter what. i'll just blame myself...

anyway, i'm in the midst of doing my assignment. felt so bored on reading the notes, so i looked at my blog and felt that i've really no time to blog... i should really make the effort to blog at least once every month... haha!

anyway, i've not done any new year shopping YET! but good news is, one of my dress, which i bought online, came today. nice! =) meeting hubby to shop on probably friday night, if not it will be on saturday! anyway, he has gone back to camp, finished his mc already... but 19 more days to his ORD date!!! =)

i'm going to be broke soon, seriously, i've got no idea where i've spent my money on. money is really getting smaller these days, easily one day i can spend like 50 bucks... LOL. need to earn more money!!! next month onwards, i'm going to keep track every single cent of my spendings on a notebook. if not, i wont be able to have any savings at all lo! haha...

assignments are never ending man... my brain juices and energy are going to be drained... but, i can do it! and time flies these days... every monday, i'll just look forward to fridays, and *blink*, friday is here... haha! weekends are just so good!!! =)

i'm missing him now...

fucking screwed up

2010-01-20T19:49:00.002+08:00

Oops~ it seems like its really been a long time ever since i updated my blog. had been busy with assignments, work and dating... and everything that has happiness will also has its sadness... really wonders why god would create things this way...

i dunno whats happening to me. everything that i do seems to be wrong. my life is totally screwed up. assignments stress, work stress, relationship stress. i hate it when i am not with him. cause problems will aroused and i missed him alot. how i wish that i could stay over at his place during weekends. that would be good to replace back those days that i cant spend time with him.

i always never think of the other party. always like to say and not do. always repeat my same old mistakes. always never talk before going through my brain. always making him angry. having doubts on me, its also i created one. every problem is from me. sometimes i really wonder why i cant be a good gf. why is it that people in relationship will always tends to demand for more? why cant we just be contented? i wish i could be one and i hope to be one, but nothing seems to have changed. maybe i should just go and die. i'm just a stupid, want my way, lies, flirts, self-centered kind of gf.

can u tell me how can i change?

i'm really very confused in my brain. i really love him, but he don't think so. cause i've shattered his hope for me again and again. why am i so stupid. i really dunno why. maybe god is punishing me? who knows?

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

freedom!!!

2010-01-02T15:51:00.002+08:00

this is what i need!!! yes, i have much more freedom now compared to the past. but still, they are restricting me... what i want is i can go anywhere, anytime and no timing for me to be back at home... when can i have my real freedom??

and they always blame him for the change in me... say ever since i know him i know how to talk back and likes to go for late nights... wtf! this change has nothing got to do with him. everybody has their rebellious stage. and for this, i'm not even rebellious until what lo... but if they are going to continue like that, sooner or later, my patience will be gone and i will show what rebellious is called. sometimes i really don't like to be in my house. sometimes when they restrict me, or disallow me to go, the devil in me will tell me the more i should go and do it. but somehow, my weak point, think my angel is stronger, will just tell me to forget it. but in me, i'm totally not happy at all!

i'm already 20, going 21 this year. i will not be so soft hearted and will not care anymore, when i turned 21!!!!

they are just being biased to him, and i totally hate it!!! very!!!!

anyway, school is starting on monday... work starts... and assignments on hands are going to due soon... feel the stress now... Arghhh!

new phone

2009-12-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

finally, i've gotten my iphone!!!!

haha, some might say i'm always changing phone... but this time, confirm wont change already, unless spoil. LOL. hubby and i shall let our china phone rest in the drawers... LOL. new 16gb white iphone for both of us, couple couple =) hehe...

anyway, went back to work yesterday and today to set up classroom... omg!!! damn headache... its like so much things to do can!!! finally i'm done with my decorations, birthday charts and some centres... a few more centres to set up, attendance chart, some labellings.... arghhh.... have been just cutting and cutting and cutting non-stop... but i'm happy with my decoration and birthday chart, they are nice!!! haha!!! shall take pictures for you all to see when i'm done with everything =) so tired... haven't been getting enough sleep lately... zzz

tmr going to accompany hubby to polyclinic to re-dress his ankle... his mum is going to fetch us there, so i have to reach his place at 10am... bye people!!!!

...........ZZzzZzzzZzzzzz.........

holidays!

2009-12-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

Ooo~ seems like my blog has been dead for quite some time. haha! as usual had been busy with assignments... good news is 3 assignments cleared. bad news is, assignments are ongoing... haha! another good news is its holidays!!! bad news is it doesnt feel like one... LOL.

anyway, past few weeks had caught 2 movies. one is new moon and the other is the storm warrior... one romance and one action movie. both are very nice!!!!

hubby, went for his operation on monday. and now staying at home "kiao ka"... past few days have been going over to see him and accompany him as i'm having holidays now. today and tmr need to go back to centre to do work... set up classroom... seems like not enough time for me, i've still got alot more to be done... haha!

nothing much to say about already. maybe shall delete this blog away someday... haah!

finally!

2009-12-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

yes! finally got to catch a movie with hubby on sunday. we watched Ninja Assassin. story wise still ok, but the action is damn nice! haha! the show i want to watch is New Moon... should be watching it tmr. actually just now we planned to watch tonight. but i was tired and lazy to go out of my house. so postponed to tmr night =)

and i need a dress for his friend's wedding on sunday. i wan go shopping!!! but i'm broke... damn damn broke... who can lend me money? LOL.

group assignment is coming to an end soon. and gotta start working on the child development individual assignment, which is due next wednesday. lol! its really damn dry, juice draining... keep reading and listening to notes, resources and lectures...

some emo thoughts here... don't ask what happened, i'm fine. just a reflect and reminder for myself. so you people can ignore if you want =)
i may seem happy, but who knows deep inside me?
i know its my fault, i know lying is the most dangerous thing.
but whats done already been done.
i know you cant forget, neither will i.
but all i want to gain back, is your trust for me.
cause without any trust, a relationship won't last.
i just hope that you can put everything behind and look just ahead.
i will try my best to do my part and keep my promises.
hope you will give me time and love me more each day.

i pray i pray i pray....

catch up

2009-11-29T16:37:00.003+08:00

didn't meet up with hubby that day. but a short catch up with andrew, kenneth and jason. LOL. met up at 848 to eat. boring guys... keep talking about army life only... LOL. but its a good thing to see them, if not i really feel that i dun have any frens... LOL. hey peeps, when are we having a gathering??? =( i miss those days... i bet you people also feel the same, right? tell me that i am right. LOL.

anyway, yesterday almost whole day spent with hubby. morning went over to find him cause he going back camp in the evening. after that he went out with his frens, so he came over my house at midnight. and guess what??? he stayed over =) i just love the feeling of seeing my the other half before sleep and seeing him when my eyes are opened. haha! and now, he is sleeping on my bed... while i'm using my com...

waiting for him to wake up and maybe we'll catch a movie in the night. hopefully this time it turns out to be positive... haha! everytime say maybe and in the end never go...

awaiting...

2009-11-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

today went to 107 for meeting, i was like darn blur lah. they were discussing about the curriculum, objectives and stuffs. and i have not even start to teach yet, have not seen those lesson plans and have not carried out yet, so of cause i have got no comments on it. kept quiet most of the times. LOL. ate my lunch there before going off as they catered buffet.

after that, i had about an hour's time to spare, so i walked to hubby's house to find him for awhile. time is running so fast, gotta head to school already. initially i dun feel like going to school, feel like spending my time with hubby, he also wants me to stay to accompany him. but after much considerations, i went to school. lesson was fine today, not that boring. but my heart was not there. anyway, two assignments are coming on hand, one group and one individual.

hubby is out with his camp mates, celebrating one of their birthdays, at bugis eating steamboat. he says he will confirm with me again to see if we are meeting up for a midnight show =) hopefully, yes, cause that day we did not go for movie again. LOL. and i miss him alot!!! but i dun understand why is it so difficult for me to get him out of the house to town area. but when it is his friends, its so easy. haiss... anyway, i'm feeling so sleepy... but i want to see him... but i still dunno if we are meeting...

so little time for so much things to be done.

today is monday

2009-11-23T15:57:00.002+08:00

just reached hubby's place, from workplace. today ended early, cause supervisor says can go back once we finish clearing the store room. morning we had selling of uniforms to nursery kids. and after lunch, we did our packing. it was so damn dusty can! my face and nose now very itching... arghhh... and after clearing the store room, i packed my class's cupboards, 7 doors. LOL. initially was very quite messy, but thanks to my colleagues for helping me transfer my stuffs from one class to another on friday. so i packed my cupboards and did a satisfying job! very neat now! see already also happy. LOL.

forget to blog about something yesterday. last saturday i had my TP and guess what? i FAILED!!! LOL. 38points, not that bad actually. lol. first station was parallel parking and i was so nervous that i suddenly forgot how to park. i took 2 times to park in, so points deducted. and next, the clank course, i didn't slow down until very slow when i tried to turn in, so i strike the kerb. luckily was just strike kerb, if mount kerb i can go home already. LOL. so 10 more points gone! next, he ask me to enter number 3 and i cant see where is number 3 as a car blocked my view, the stupid car is directly infront of number 3. so he say "here here here". den i kanchiong, just turned in even though the queue is long, thus blocking the other direction's way. minus point also, i should have waited for the cars to move, until there is space for me, den i can move. but lucky thing is that there isn't any car coming, if not immediate failure, thats what he says. hehe. and the rest of the points are deducted due to failure to check blindspots. haha! gotta wait for dec slots... i dun wanna wait so long... shall check every morning for the slots!!!

yesterday, did not went to watch movie as i fell asleep too... LOL. maybe later going for the movie. maybe only... tomorrow no need for me to go for work as they have an exhibition/seminar to go for in RP. they did not register for me, so an "off" day for me. haha! they say i want go and take a look also can, but will i be so hardworking to just go and see the exhibition? LOL. no, of cause! not becaue i lazy hor. its also because i cant go into the seminars to listen to the talks, so i go there for what. den i can rest till afternoon den go for my class =) YAY!

back in action!

2009-11-22T19:18:00.003+08:00

hmm, seems like i have been neglecting my blog for about 2 weeks... have been really busy and no time to blog... busy with work, school and hubby... hah! as i said, working everyday and studying till night time, by the time i reached home i'm already exhausted to use the com. good news is, one assignment down! gonna get on with another one, which is a group assignment, so still not too bad... haha! that day wanted to go donate blood in SP, but my weight not enough, so cannot. LOL.

i'm no longer working at chongpang 107 already, i'm now located at sembawang 405. thursday was my last day at 107, i miss my teachers and aunty there. i reported to 405 on friday, first time going there, lucky is only for meeting. got to know the schedule for going back during this holiday. quite excited about next year as i will be taking k2 class, have pros and cons too. hopefully everything goes smoothly, and the children will co-operate with me. anyway, first day there, the people were fine. not much to comment yet. haha!

haven been watching movies lately, and never go anywhere also, so i've got nothing much to update about my personal life. now i'm at hubby's house, waiting for him to wake up. maybe later we will go for a show, probably 2012 or paranormal activity? i might go for 2012 cause it the duration makes my money worth for weekend tickets. LOL. no lah, i not that aunty lah, its because the rating is better than paranormal activity.

oh ya! we are going to get iphone! but hubby will get it first, cause my line is starhub, and i'm waiting for them to have the iphone out!!! anyway, i've reserved it online. =) we are going to have the same phone! loves~

after next week, i no need go work le, but need go school... a few more weeks to my school holidays also!! den i'm free, can everyday see my hubby as he is going for his ankle ligament operation in mid dec, just nice i having holidays. =) but like i say, some of the days need to go back to work to prepare the stuffs for next year.

hubby says i become fat le =( my butt becomes bigger... sad... but my weight never change at all. however, i will still go and exercise, i dun wan to become fat also, i want to reduce 4kg!!! my plan is to run every alternate days and do skipping on the other days. and eat lesser!!! haha!

ok, seems like nothing much to post anymore. shall stop here then! =)

finally weekend again!

2009-11-06T22:08:00.003+08:00

noticed that it is the same title as before?

but this weekend for me, isn't a great one. hubby is in camp, he has duty for the whole week, haven't seen him since sunday. which also means that maybe sunday night or monday den i'll get to see him. depends on what time he books out. if late, den i'll probably see him on monday after my work.

just back from chongpang cc, went to see the graduation concert of the k2 children. they are so great, adorable and amazing! =)

had been learning driving as and when i can, as there is no much time left for me... tmr will be learning, as well as sunday... 2 more weeks for me to go. but weekdays i've no time to learn, so only can during weekends...

looking forward to see my hubby, really miss him so much! hmmm... and one assignment for language skills is out! have to write 1500 words, on a child that observed, the problems and how to help. anyway, kids are really adorable and energy draining!

OH YA! and i would like to thank qinghui and wanjun for the gift and card=) they gave me a dress, its nice and i love it!!! thanks so much! =) really appreciate it! loves~

finally weekend!

2009-10-31T13:28:00.000+08:00

nothing really much happened for the whole week... its just work and study... but i enjoyed my workplace =)

wednesday and thursday hubby came over to have dinner with me at my house area... and spent some time with me at my house... and yesterday, finally end of the weekdays, we went for a midnight show... we watched "Jennifer's body", its quite nice... can go and watch it! =)

today nothing has been planned yet, but i've driving lesson at 4.30pm. after that will be home...
boring life i have...

school + work

2009-10-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

hmmm... at the moment i still can survive from school and work. actually, work is just as i thought, relax... LOL. its only for 4 hours for me to be there, from 830 to 1230... and after that off to school! school was alright, still can manage... but felt quite tired when lesson starts... i guess its because of the long travelling and maybe lunch was a cause too... LOL. but i really hate to travel from yishun to dover and back to khatib... but no choice...

on thursday, i get to tell a story to k1 class, felt quite nervous initially, but as it goes, quite used to it... so i said it in my own way, i read one sentence and children follow and questions asked on the way and children answered. after that teacher jaya then told me that actually they have a share book approach something like a lesson plan, which tells me how am i supposed to introduce this book in the first lesson and following lessons. so actually what i did was lesson 2. so lesson 1 is suppose to talk about the cover, explain and ask children on what the title is about and teacher say, children listen. oh ya, by the way, teacher jaya is the teacher that i'm being attached to.

and on friday, i get to teach phonics to nursery class... start of the day, teacher jaya told me to teach jingle joy. i was like "er... whats that?" and she explained to me that its phonics being taught in singing version. just have to follow the cd being played. this time i'm not nervous anymore, guess practice more will be better. she said the principal asked her to let me experience more. i'm glad that i get to start teaching, if not will be boring if its just observation...

anyway, hubby is here with me... at my house, lying on my leg, watching tv... so glad that he is here to accompany me =) just now mopped the floor and ironed my one whole tonne of clothes... finally finished them... haha! later going down to makan supper!!!

meet up

2009-10-18T02:18:00.001+08:00

i'm back from meeting up with minyi, sc, kenny, kenneth, hp... went to see them play mahjong at kenneth house... after that we headed to 761 to eat zhi char at 9plus... saw hubby there... happy to see him, miss him so much... and after eating we went to 637 there to slack... den 12plus kenny and me went to chongpang eat beancurd, the rest went home... and now i'm home... so bored... hubby is at his fren's gf's bbq at sembawang park... he's gonna stay there till morning lo! sian... haha!

anyway, glad to meet up with you guys today... so long didn't see you guys le... kinda missed those days...

my 20th birthday

2009-10-17T15:48:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my birthday. say by to my teens life.... can't believe that i've finally reached the digit 2 infront. haha! i would like to thanks those people who remembered my birthday and send wishes to me. so touched. most of them are like acquiantance...

lets talk about how i spent my birthday...

the night before, thursday night, sis and jason bought ice cream cake for me. so we have cake cutting session at 10plus in the night...

next day, which is yesterday, my birthday, went to school for the last day of starter kit... whole day was happy, cause two of the lecturers are the ones that i liked. had lunch with my coursemates... we had KFC and PizzaHut. they treated me. and gave me presents. was so surprised and happy. cause i didn't expect these from them. its like we've only known each other for this two weeks and they will do this kind of thing. anyway, sharon and sheree bought me mascara. fangjia, zihui and jiaen bouught me a braclet from perlini silver. so nice of them, aren't they.

after school, went to town to meet hubby. we had dinner at billy bombers and watched "Imagine That". its a nice show to catch =) after which headed to his house. and he gave me my present! =) didn't expect that he would get me a necklace from citigems. and he wore it for me... so nice, isn't it? hehe... so surprised and happy! and he written/completed the card that i made for our 6th month anniversary. so touched for the things he wrote... haha! I AM SO HAPPY!!! after that went home. though its just a simple celebration, i am still happy!!!! =)

pictures are taken, but i will upload it some time later. however, i dun have a picture of us together =(

starter ending

2009-10-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

one more day for starter kit to end... shiokness to the max!!! LOL. its really been a real two weeks of torture... so much of information, my brain gonna burst... and so tiring... but got to know friends in starter kit from different classes. i'm gonna miss them after tmr. but we've planned to meet for lunch if possible before lessons =)

anyway, recently watched the movie "shorts". ain't really that nice... feels like so long i haven't been watching movies already... thinking back, last time one week hubby and me can watch about 2-4 movies lo... now like 2 weeks once? LOL. thought was a good thing, can save money, but i think spent alot on food lo....

nowadays don't really have much to blog about, somehow it seems that nothing interesting in my life is happening. boring.... oh ya, yesterday i spent 150bucks in double index... bought 4 pants, one blouse and a dress... =)

somehow, kinda looking forward to next week. cause i'll be in a kindergarten class under a teacher already. get to see the children and learn more things... hopefully everything goes well...

6months

2009-10-10T11:23:00.002+08:00

hubby, happy 6th month anniversary!!!! and counting on... =) hubby is on duty for this whole week... so only will be able to celebrate on sunday when he books out... but when i say celebrate, i dun mean big celebrations. to me, it can be just as simple as a meal... the important thing is to meet him... i miss him so much...

though it seems like we are getting more quarrels as time goes, at the same time our feelings for each other are stronger too... and we are getting to know each other more... sometimes in a relationship, one tends to get overboard unconsciously, so its good that the other part points it out.

why do we find a gf/bf? its is to know about your another half, wants him/her to understand you, be with you when you need him/her, wants to be loved, wants someone to be concerned about you, wants someone to comfort/make you smile when you are down and wants someone who can share ups and downs with. and there will always be that special bond between each other that will bring us together to walk our way through...

hubby, i want to tell you that i really appreciate everything that you have done. lets both try our best to be better =) and we shall walk through thick and thins together. promise me that you will never let go...

REMINDER FOR MYSELF:
Be myself. Be satisfied. Be understanding. Learn to comfort.

end/start

2009-10-05T20:38:00.002+08:00

how did i end my "holiday"? saturday went to catch a movie with hubby. thats it. to think back, i didn't really enjoy my days to the fullest man... LOL.

but complaining now also no use, cause my course has started.....

LOL. today is the start of my starter kit program for the course... its wtf can... we had 3 long hours lectures... and long hours meaning 3hours.... from 0800 to 1130 on lifespan development, 1230 to 1600 on language skills and from 1600 to 1930 on creating and managing the learning environment... short breaks in between. but the seats were damn uncomfortable can... and the canteen is like damn far away lah... tired of walking man....

and we were wondering why are the lecturers so long-winded... they can talk and keep repeating on the same point... and some like to digress away... OMG can!!!!

think i gonna bring some tidbits to lecture tomorrow... if not i'll die in there lo... hopefully i can survive through this.... Oops! not hopefully, its a MUST!!!! haha!

shopping spree

2009-10-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

woah~

yesterday went to shop around town after my speaking test.... my first time shopping ALONE... LOL... kinda lonely at first, but somehow i felt quite shiok shopping alone... go wherever i like, stop whenever i want, and no one nagging at me... LOL. shop shop shop... and met up with darling and my cousin for their lunch break at 5pm... bought stuffs from cotton on and m)phasis.

decided to go causeway point to get another top from cotton on, as wisma outlet doesn't have it. waited for hubby, cause i meet him to accompany me. waited for about an hour lo... den we head down to woodlands and got what i want. and ate MosBurger for dinner...

spent so much money already lo... left with 20bucks only... LOL. i'm broke again... later should be meeting hubby for dinner and movie... tomorrow i'm having my orientation in SP from 9am to 5pm... =)

though some unhappy stuffs happened yesterday, i still enjoyed hubby's accompany. just want to let you know that i'm always here for you. don't always keep everything to yourself, i'm here to share it with you... hope that i can always bring laughters in your life... love you!

updated:
no movie and dinner with hubby =(

bonding =)

2009-09-30T12:38:00.003+08:00

yesterday had a fun bonding time with darling, phil and andrew.... we met up at yishun station and walked to chongpang beancurd... eat eat eat.... den we walked to safra... went in the bowling area.... but we did not play bowling... we played super munchkins!!! i'm the winner!!!! HAHAHAHHA!!! beginner's luck i guess... LOL. one game lasted for about an hour, maybe? den we walked to 800plus to eat supper... darling and i shared a bowl of tomyam you mian... chit chat chit chat.... until 2plus am den we decided to go home... finally get to meet up with some of my friends... LOL...

later i'll be heading down to British Council at Napier Road for my Speaking Test... hopefully everything goes smoothly.... never do any preparations for this... haha! JIAYOU SAMANTHA! YOU CAN DO IT! =)

quote of the day: enjoy while you can...

speechless

2009-09-29T21:22:00.005+08:00

i've got nothing to say... just so speechless...
emo in the house. LOL
going to beancurd session and maybe munchkins! with darling, phil, and drew...

my thoughts

2009-09-23T12:32:00.003+08:00

i don't like to see him angry, not because i'm afraid.

its just simply because seeing him angry affects me as well.
i'll feel sad and angry with myself when i made him pissed or angry.
i hate it whenever there is any second of unhappiness in him.
i just want to see his smiles and hear his laughters everytime...

i want to be the girl who can brighten his days...
i want to be the girl who will not always brings problems to him...
i want to be the girl who he can put his trust on...
i want to be the girl who will always be there for him...
i want to be the girl who he will always think of...
i want to be the girl who he'll share his ups and downs with...
i want to be the girl who he'll spend the rest of his time...
i want to be the girl who he changes for...

i love him when he is really sweet...
i love him when he makes me laughs...
i love him when he says sensible stuffs...
i love him when he is there for me...
i love him when he gives in to me...
i love him when he hugs me...
i love him when he kisses me...
i love him when he tells me he loves me...
i love him when he scolds me for the right reason...
i love him when he feels jealous...
i love him when he laughs...
i love him when he confesses his love for me...
i love him when he protects me...
i love him when he helps me finish up my food...
i love him when he plays with me...
i love him when he feeds me...
i love him when he jokes with me...
i love him when he shares problems with me...
i love him when he show concern for me...
i love him when he talks to me...

haha! think i can keep writing and writing.... anyway, i just love him. sis and her fiance asked me yesterday, why i love him. so this is why... anyway, we are already together for 5months 13days... and counting on... =) may our love last....

sis birthday

2009-09-22T21:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday was sis's birthday, as well as a public holiday. mum, sis, sis's fiance and me, went down to town in the afternoon. shopped around. took photos. after that, the main celebration was dinner at Hard Rock Cafe... dad came and joined in.

Hard Rock Cafe really rocks! though the food is expensive, but the portion like american's size... LOL. and the ambience is just so great. there is live band! haha! maybe my birthday can go there too:) and and and, their service is VERY GREAT!!!! the fish and chips is like OMG!!!! very nice... haha! everything was just so nice!!!

took quite a number of photos, but its not with me now. so i shall upload some when i get them on my hands... haha!

i'm missing him so much again...

good girl

2009-09-20T02:16:00.006+08:00

today, i'm a good girl. stayed at home for the whole day... and finally i started on my IELTS practise material... finished the 4 sections of listening. kinda easy, but not very happy that i scored 32 out of 40. as i feel that listening should help me score more....

and i started on my reading passage section 1 and 2... quite happy with the results... left one more section for reading passage... after doing, i felt sleepy and went to sleep... LOL. read until i very tired lo... and it took me quite some time to understand what i'm actually reading, cause the passages 1 and 2 are so scentific and geographic...

and nua on bed until my whole body dun feel good... like going to sick like tat... LOL. anyway, yesterday i took mum's gastric pills. and GREAT! i'm fine now... haha!

anyway, tomorrow's sentosa is cancelled as i've checked the weather forecast that it is going to be cloudy tomorrow. and it has been raining these few days, so i rather not go and waste my time on sunless beach... haha! shall wait for the sun to back again, den i'll head down to the beach... or maybe i should stay fair, hubby likes my colour now... haha!

i feel that i think i can be independent and not always stick to him anymore. and i need not talk on the phone with him to get to sleep anymore. i can don't bother about him if he doesn't wants. i can don't be so sticky if he feels that he needs more space to breathe. haha! good and bad thing, i guess. and guys are weird. when you talk too much, they say you annoying. but when you quiet, they say you emo. and when you keep sticking to him, they say no freedom. but when you don't stick to him, they ask why is there a change. LOL.

i love you. i believe in us. we can go through everything together. =)

-UPDATED-
this is what hubby says to me before i signs out of msn to go to bed....

† ĸƎĻ¥!Ɲ †† ™ 10 day of alone says:
bye love u
miss u
muack
muack

†† ĸƎĻ¥!Ɲ †† ™ 10 day of alone says:
nite my lady

though it may means nothing to all of you, it means alot to me... so sweet, isn't it =)
guess i'll have a good night sleep =)

loves~

2009-09-18T23:34:00.005+08:00

so sweet.... i love it!

i love the slipper! thanks hubby!

i'm just so loving it! haha!

anyway, i think i'm having gastric flu... these few days giving me problems. some times pain some times not. eat also pain, dun eat also pain. some times got appetite some times no. some times feel nauseous some times won't. i think i can write poem liao... haha!

tomorrow hubby going to the zoo with his friends. i'll be lonely at home. haha! shall do my practise materials... haven't started on practising my english... shit lah. ok, anyway, i've cancelled my oct TP and booked nov de... LOL. and it on sat, so it wont clash until my study nor work. =)

i'm so so so broke... no income... boring... trying to dig mum to give me allowance... since i am still considered as studying rite... haha! and this month never work, so no pay. so she should feed me... with money... haha!!!

p/s: gastric flu, please go away. you are fucking irritating and i hate you.

dumbo

2009-09-18T01:27:00.003+08:00

i'm such a dumb girlfriend. always asking dumb questions which gives the reason why i'm always getting scoldings from him. seriously, who in the earth will be happy to hear from your girlfriend asking him if she could go club with her friends, even though its all females. cause all of us knows what is going to happen in the club.

and stupidly i spoiled him mood by asking that. though he say go, but i know he is unhappy. and i dun wish him to be unhappy. and i ain't going with my friends already. i regretted posting the question to him. he was like so sweet and happy before i asked the question.

him: "goodnight. love you lots. muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks!"

me: "ok bye"

him: -paused- "den you no need say?"

and i just came up with my dumb question to spoil everything.

i was really happy before that. and before he leaves just now, he says "tomorrow we wear the same slippers." =) ain't he sweettt??? AwwwWWww~

i was so happy today. we went down to town. so glad that hubby was willing to go down town. had mosburger for lunch. and newurbanmale is having sales, where buy u buy 2 slippers u get 50% off. so he bought for me too... we got the same design. loves~ went to fareast to shop, wanted to get some clothings. but nothing caught my eye... around 7pm, went back to yishun... decided to catch a movie at 9plus "the ugly truth" so meanwhile, we had our dinner at "eighteen chefs". food was not bad though... movie was definitely thumbs up! happily walked home, chatted all the way. and chilled under my block for a while with a bottle of milk tea, chit chatted... happily sent me home, up the lift, the stairs. happily, sweetly and lovingly bid goodbye with warmth and secured hugs and kisses... happily texted me that he is home. happily telling me the time to meet and wake him up tmr... happily wishing me goodnight.... BUT stupidly me, just a question to spoil everything!

people out there everytime asking me for advice on their relationship... but can someone please tell me why am i a relationship freak when it comes to my own relationship? i'm always doing stupid things.... and i will change to be more independent and less bothersome....

good girl

2009-09-16T12:11:00.004+08:00

today i shall be a good girl and stay at home... read up story books to improve my english and probably do abit of the practise materials... hubby is back in camp but will be out tonight:)

tomorrow i need to meet up with the principal to sign documents so as to register under MOE. wondering when will my results be out... i need them to register.... arghhh...

tomorrow might be able to head down to town with hubby. but i've not put in high hopes for it, because he says see how... haha! lazy bum. friday will be accompanying hubby to MA.

don't know why i have nothing much to blog about. nothing exciting is happening around me. my life is so boring... gonna find some excitement man! haha! JOKING

anyway, that day went to Rebel. it was fun! drank 2 tequila pop for the start and followed by chivas mixed green tea. started in zirca first. seriously i really cant enjoy zirca's music for long. so we went over to rebel... OMG! RnB ROCKS man.... and i saw my friend who is an MC there... he rocks too=) haha! and guess what? i love to club with hubby...

anyway, just now typed this post till here. so i shall continue now....

just now went to yishun with sis. ate long john silver and bought a duo cordless phone. and i changed my posb card... haha! happily back home to try out the cordless phone... to my astonishment, one of it is not working!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!

this means that i have to head back there to change it. stupid. so later i'll be meeting mummy to go yishun to change as well as to recontract her line and get new phone, mum's phone chui already. and now, i'm waiting for mum's call to set off from home... and from just now until now, i was helping sis with her work.... sian.... haha!

actually my plan for today was to do the english practise materials, but i have not done it... maybe later in the night i shall start doing... =) cannot be so lazy. i want to get the marks just one time. save money, save time.... hehe.

i miss my hubby~
i miss my clique~

signed on to yishun gv

2009-09-14T18:35:00.000+08:00

have watched aliens in the attic and gamer... aliens in the attic is a nice show! i like it! i bet everyone who watched it likes it too... its damn funny and damn cool lo... as for gamer, action pact wise is nice, but dun really have the story line leh...

anyway, i'm getting closer to my exam and my new course!!! haha! SHIOK!

and as for my TP, i still not sure if i will cancel it or i will skip my starter kit. i'll see how it goes...

just now went to eat ajisen at ssc with hubby. hmmm... food was alright only...

going to sentosa soon for tanning!!!! i'm getting fair... i dun like!!! arghh.... haha!

bye!

guinea pigs

2009-09-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to watch G-Force with hubby! it was a nice show!!! you guys should go catch it!!! they are just so smart and adorable...

today went to register my IELTS at British Council at Napier Road. sis fetched me. and went home to nap. then headed down for facial... after that met hubby at about 8plus... went for dinner... we ate zi cha at 848... hmmm... ordered hotplate beancurd, thai style chicken and kangkong. but the person served our kangkong to other ppl and replaced ours to dunno what veg but cooked in kangkong way. anyway, the food not nice... only the hotplate beancurd i think still ok. we are not satisfied with it lo... planning to eat zi cha tomorrow again! but at sembawang... hubby says its nice there. so yea... hubby is on leave for two days again =)

oh ya, and my course is not even one year course lo. and its not diploma, its advanced diploma. course will end at next year august! and i cannot fail, if not i need to pay money! jiayou! and my orientation is on 2nd oct:) and there's a starter kit programme from 5th to 16 oct, 8am to 7pm... so anxious!!!

whats wrong with blogger??? layout everything go haywire...

happiness!

2009-09-08T16:35:00.000+08:00

fortunately, i passed my portfolio with a C grade! results not out yet, but i asked one of the lecturers to help me check.

and another happy thing is SP allows me to start my course in october though the registration for october intake is over. thanks! and i'll be considered under probation until my diploma cert is out!!! YAY!!!

and i will be starting work on 1st October, under PCF Chongpang. but i still dunno which branch she will put me in...

so happy!!! i can just start my course asap!!! and i'll need to take IELTS, as my english C6 and its not up to criteria. i'll need to get an IELTS 6.5 =) it has listening, oral, written, and speaking sections... LOL. planning to take it this month so i can faster get over and done with it! hopefully one time i will get 6.5 or higher! tmr i'll be going to to register for it!!! 300bucks lo! so expensive...

today's driving NEVER engine stall!!! haha! but but but... still not very good... jerking driving... haha!

hubby's booking out soon!!! going to meet him watch show later=)

bye!!!!

i love you

2009-09-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

just back from movie, i love you beth cooper. and dinner at 848 with hubby.
missing him so much now!!! arghhh! anyway, the show has humor and romance, those who like this genre can go catch it! =)

and i'm so in love with him!!!

and tmr is my interview! wish me luck!!! =)

inside me

2009-09-06T13:37:00.007+08:00

wondering..... am i being appreciated?

i feel so useless at times... and now i realise that i'm actually not good enough. be it inner or outer beauty. i've so many bad points.

dunno why i'm becoming more and more petty, gets jealous easily, affected easily, emotional, blah blah blah. why does it comes naturally to me when i put in more and more love? i dun wish to be like that. i hate myself being so petty and emotional and affected and jealous easily. i'm a girl who can take things easily. but why now i cant? what happened to me? where has that samantha gone to?

why does love and all these silly things come together? i want to love. i want to be a better person. i need to control myself from all these silly things so as to achieve happiness. i am a girl who can take jokes, right? so i should just keep it this way. and be happy! i know which are jokes and which are serious, i can differentiate. so why so affected by jokes... stupid me... love makes me lose my senses.... haha! :p

in the past, to me, i feel that you need not change for someone. the other part should just love you the way. but now, i feel that changing for someone whom you love isn't wrong too. both parties should play a part in building a stronger relationship. and what's more, you are changing your negatives to positives, so its for your own good too. and no matter what happens, both should stand together and solve it. this will build up the relationship too. though we haven't met any really difficult and serious problem, or maybe we had, we will be able to do it together =)

all i wish for is my hubby's love, heart and dote on me.
have your eyes and mind and heart just on me =)
and i know you have already placed your heart with me. loves~

wants

2009-09-05T17:57:00.000+08:00

i want to be a good daughter.
i want to be a good girlfriend/wife.
i want to be independent.
i want to be able to do what i want.
i want to earn more money.
i want to succeed in everything i do.
i want to be smarter.
i want to be slimmer.
i want to be prettier.
i want to be a better person.
i want i want i want....

i'm always wondering, why am i so always not up to expectations. am i really that bad? am i not a good daughter? am i a good girlfriend? sometimes i'm doubting myself, so what makes others to have no doubts in me? can people really change? i want to change and i will. but is it true that a leopard will never change its spots? but i am sure that i really changed, i ain't flirt and wont flirt anymore. i want to settle down and i like it this way. i am happy with my hubby now. hope to see us walking together till the end. i need to boost my self-esteem... and i need to be more mature... i need believe in you. you gave me your words, i'll always remember in my heart. loves~

tomorrow will be a better day =)

dance flick

2009-09-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday went for midnight show, watched "dance flick". hmmm... not really up to my expectation. and it is more of comedy to me lo... den the show is like a mixture so a few shows...

next to watch "G-force", "I love you beth cooper".....

oh ya, i'm having an interview on monday =) hopefully money coming again.... yay!

how i wish i can live with my laogong lo... i just love that kind of live whereby you can see your the other half when you first open eyes in the morning. then, eat breakfast together. go out together. watch tv together. come back home together. eat dinner together. do everything together. and end of the day, before closing eyes to sleep, its him that you see again:) hugging you to sleep every night... will this come true? haha! yes, keep on dreaming bah, samantha. haha!

my rantings now!!!
my family, i'm so pissed. still back to the old question. why has it always got to be me... and the one doing things for you all, gets what in return? i know, i shouldn't ask for returns. but can you all see my goods and not bads... why people will only say your bads... even if you do 10 goods, and only 1 bad, they will always remember the bad and forget the goods. haiss. why is it i'm always the one being nagged at and letting you to voice out your feelings. i dont mind you voicing out to me. but dun always arrow until me. i dun mind doing things for you all. but please, i dun request much, just let me do what i want. let me have peace in going out late. everytime i go out, my phone keep on ring and ring. its damn irritating you know?

and what about the person not doing anything? why all of you dont say her? why why why. just because i'm the youngest in the family and can be treated like that? i know you all treat me good also, but i'm 20 this year already. just let me do what i want. i know i have been given alot of freedom compared to sis. but you cant compared it like that. we are a difference of 4 yrs... if you want to compare, den nowadays kids in primary schools already can go out with friends, den what about me in primary school? its the generation you should see... please be more reasonable. i know this week i keep going out late. but you dont say i everyday go out late. den when i stayed at home, do you all say i never go out? answer is no. you all only keep remembering me going out late. and its only this week, cause i finally ain't working. den i have the time to play. next week, if i got my job, i wont be like tat anymore.

but why you all say she can go out cause she is working. so she needs to enjoy during weekend. den when i am working, why am i not allowed to? why why why. you all say you guys treat us fair. but is this really fair? you guys say no favoritism. but outsiders can see it clearly that dad treats her better than me. what about mum, i know you are trying to be fair. and you are fair. but in this world, there's no such thing as fair. no matter how fair you try to be, there is still a slight difference. and where is it? think. if its fair, will you keep complaining to me only? if its fair, will you not dare to say her.. if its fair, ...... sis gets her way. why? cause she is more fierce, mouth more sharp, more heartless... and heartless meaning that she can just dun bother about everything. and me? can i dun bother? if i also dun bother, kanna scold is me.

in conclusion, THE WORLD IS FUCKING UNFAIR!

k. enough of everything... let me say again, if one day i can't tolerate anymore, don't blame me for hurting you all. don't blame me for being a changed person.

driving lesson 9

2009-09-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

Arghhh.... my clutch controlling still sucks lo!!! haha! keep get scolding from instructor! =(
must chiong chiong chiong le!!! next week should be going in to circuit to try out le... haha...
hubby coming out soon:)

lost of blood -.-

final destination 4

2009-09-02T12:22:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! this show is damn gore can... shiok! nice nice! though doesnt really have any story and everyone dies in the end... haha! though yesterday only spent a few hours with hubby, but its quality time =)

meeting him around in the evening after my appointment with sis... he's booking in tonight =( but he will be out tomorrow again =) haha! miss him so much!

hubby, i only wish that you can trust me and have confidence in me...

free woman

2009-08-31T10:33:00.000+08:00

watched "the proposal" lately, it was indeed very nice! haha! and now the next one that i want to catch is "final destination 4"... spent fruitful time with hubby... and now he's back in he's camp... missing him much...

next, i've been terminated from work.... its a good and bad thing... cause i'm already thinking of leaving, its just a matter of time. and people showed concern, asking why i dun wish to ask further. as she terminate me just by a sms and no advance notice. people feel unfair and angry for me too... but i said no, since she already put it so NICELY that its because for my convenience as i want to go study... so i shall not say much. but in actual fact, we think that its because that she has already arranged new permanent staffs in this week. so no need me also mah, since i also not going to be a permanent staff and sign bond with them. and reason why i dun want to question further is i dun want her to think that i really need this job lo... i can just get a job anytime... is whether i want or not lo... haha!

anyway, take it as its time for me to enjoy!!!! WAHAHAHAAAAA!!!! later i'm going to meet charlene to do hair treatment at hougang... and i'll come back home to iron my clothes!!! its a mountain again... =(

i was so stupid last night. hubby asked me to wake him up at 5am. i set my alarm at 5am... and when i lied on my bed at 1plus am, i was thinking that hubby's phone's clock is faster than mine by 6mins. so my itchy hand went to change the mins to 54. so my alarm clock was 0554. happily i went to sleep. until 0545, a sms came from hubby, said why i never wake him up(but luckily he is awake already) and he going to book in already. i then realise that i was so smart to change the mins to 54 but i didnt change the hours to 04... haha! so smart of me... LOL. sorry hubby.

i wanna go shopping!!!!! arghhhh!

days with hubby

2009-08-12T18:53:00.004+08:00

had been spending my days with hubby since sunday, he booked out... we caught 2 movies, "GI JOE" and "UP".... both are nice!!! should go catch it! =)

also, not only enjoying myself, i also did my portfolio.... at least i'm done with my namecard and now, still doing graphics for the website... today hubby came over to my house area and we had MacDonalds for breakfast... so sweet... and headed back to his house... dunno why, i like this kind of life where i can spend my whole day with my partner... watch tv, do work, eat, read papers, etc...

ok, as promised, pictures for my parents' birthday celebration!!!!!

MIA

2009-08-07T23:17:00.001+08:00

Oops, sorry people, i know i have been missing for such a long time. and this explains the silence in my tagboard??? LOL. anyway, have been real busy for so these period. i try and recall what FUN i had other than work. lets see...

ok, firstly, went dinner together with my peeps for kenny's enlistment. had dinner at Ding Tai Fung at Paragon. Dan chao fan is nice! haha! and they say its a hot topic of the month that i eat back seafood. now, peeps! update on my hot topic! i eat white meat, which also means chicken. hehe!

ok, next, celebrated andrew's birthday and we had dinner at Swensens. yummy! didn't go there for quite some time already =) and happy thing of the day is that hubby joined us =) hope this can happen always... LOL

other than these two special events, i can't really recall man... should be nothing else, i guess...

now, these few days, hubby is sick. sad and worried. that day he had fever up to 40degrees. that's damn high can. i was so worried. and rushed down after work. touched him, it was damn hot! OMG! and i used iced water and help him clean and put on his forehead, to try cool down the temperature. his mum came back at around 8plus. and tried ways to make him perspire, so that the heat will come out. she used ways like, comb his body and head(i think is to open the pores), applied medicated oil and drank some warm herbal tea to let the body feel the heat and perspire out. it works. but he's still not feeling very well and the temperature is still high. thus, his mum drove us to TTSH and reached at about 9plus. wanted to follow him in, but fever has to go to another side, which his mum and me cannot go in. so we waited outside, wait wait wait.... time passed...i went home at 1plus am... and his mum is still there... think they went home at 2plus... hubby is on drip for so long, he used 3 packets. nurse says that his temperature is down, but heartbeat rate is still very fast, so gotta wait for it to drop back to normal... that explains the waiting time =) anyway, hubby is slightly better now. but still coughing and has flu. and his temperature is slightly high, but not yet fever(as of the last temperature taken just now). hope hubby gets well soon and everything back to normal. now i feel so lonely and bored.... and he still went to book in just now as he wanted to do his duty for sat and sun... worried worried... please take good care of yourself in camp...

next, i need to stress about my portfolio!!! i still dunno the deadline, but its somehow near... so i think next week leave for the whole week. hopefully enough time for me to rush everything... anyone wants to help me? feel free to tell me... haha!!!

and another thing, i kept thinking about is whether to study early childhood or counselling. early childhood kinda suits me, however earns lesser... and in near future, if u dun have a pay of at least 3k, its hard to survive... suggestions from those who knows me well???

oh ya! how can i possibly forget about such an important celebration! guess what! last week my family had celebration for my parents' birthday, we combined both together, because its about a week's difference only. we went to some cantonese restaurant at maxwell road. think its called Moi Ling, something like that. its just beside the red dot museum... going that area reminds me of my attachment days... haha... ok, back to the celebration... there's my whole family, including jason(sis's fiance) and my hubby! food was alright, not bad, but some are quite saltish, and jason said that cantonese food are always slightly saltish. now i'll post some photos!!! (Oops! i guess some other day, something's wrong with blogger, i dun have my that whole toolbox bar... Arghhh!)

happy days!!!

2009-07-22T23:11:00.003+08:00

happy that i've spent hubby's 20th birthday with him and his family... no more teens for him:) love you much hubby, and i hope to spend your every birthday with you from now on...

went out with sis on monday and met up with hubby in the afternoon... walked around town... and head back home... ate dinner at my house there...

yesterday and today was on MC... sore throat and coughing, now got flu... tmr gonna go work, very paiseh to take mc again leh... unless i go until there den supervisor dun allow me to work lo... LOL. doc says if fever den gotta go see him again... cause of the H1N1 case...

anyway, was very happy these few days, as hubby mentioned to buy me clothes if i want to when we were in town... actually wanna watch movies, but no nice shows recently... today went to amk hub as promised with hubby:) guess whats more happy than everything? hubby wanted to buy couple ring!!!! OMG!!! can you imagine this suggestion coming out from his mouth!?!?!?!? I WAS SO SHOCKED AND TOUCHED AND HAPPY!!!! i can feel that hubby loves me so much.... and i love him too:)

so we went to amk hub, as there are bits and pieces and couple lab... went to look around... in the end i chose from couple lab as bits and pieces de rings didnt caught my eye... hubby let me choose the design... got engravings on it! but monday den can collect!!! OMG OMG!!! i'm so happy can! hubby is happy but heart pain also... LOL. he say, within 5mins spend hundred plus, but worth it lah... =)

i feel that i'm the happiest girl on earth! haha! loving him loads! will upload his birthday pics together with the rings pics... so be patient=)

loves~

happy VS sad

2009-07-18T12:39:00.004+08:00

finally get to see my hubby! yesterday spent time at his house and watched midnight show!!! harry potter and the half blood prince... haha!

throughout the night, we chit chatted alot, including craps and true words from his heart... i can feel his love for me... and he expressed to me alot of things... i'm really very glad about it! love him loads... his birthday is on sunday!!! going his house for buffet... looking forward to spending my days with him, cause i haven't been seeing him for twelve days!!! sufferring for both of us man...

yesterday chit chatted with his sis and bro at his house... seems like my relationship with his family is getting better(my own assumption)... LOL... hope that they won't dislike me bah.... haha! hope that i'm likable=)

below contents is my rantings, if you do not wish to read then leave.

sometimes i really wonder why am i so soft hearted... does good people really ended up with good retribution? but why, i'm the more obedient one, helps to do my family stuffs, do this and that, and i still don't get what i want... maybe i should be rellious to get what i want... you know, i can lie to you all about my whereabouts, but why i ask for permissions? cause i respect you all... but why... HELLOO.... now its already 21st generation and i'm 20 already... why still keep nagging when i stay out late, why i cant stay at my boyfriend house. and stop using the word "always", i never always go out late with him, and its me who wanted it, so dun blame him. and i only go out with him one week 2 or three times, is that always???

and i already explained, he's in army, different from my ex, i only get to see him for that few days, and when i get to meet him when he books out, its already what time, obviously i will go out till late, if not meet a few hours for what? why this reason just cant get through you mind? PISSED! and its obviously you all have prejudice against him... i hate it! stop comparing the past me and now. if i've changed is also not because of him! i've always been a good girl, maybe its time for a change... being a good girl is tirng and get nothing out of it...

and do you all know i feel that i want to be rebellious? do you all know that someday i will... do you all know that when you all keep stopping me to do something i feel like doing it... do you all know that the more you all are afraid of me doing wrong things, and hence stopping me to go his house or stay over, the more i feel like doing it? i feel that in this generation, parents shouldn't tell their kids to not to do this or do that, so what if you keep saying? the most, i'll face up to whatever consequences. i know i might be unfillial here, but this is how i feel all these years... i've really been a good girl, but now, i've my life! can you all just stop stopping me life! mum doesn't have her life, she feels lonely, so she expects us to stay at home and accompany her???? does that mean that we cant have our life??? what the fuck is this man! so remember, if one day i ever to lie or be rebellious, dont ever blame others! its my own choice and its you all who created it!

drove home!

2009-07-15T21:44:00.002+08:00

think today is the 7th lesson! first time driving in the night... today is just driving around... from bradell to ubi and back home! haha! i requested to drive home =) shiok ar!!!

anyway, i'm counting down to the day for me to meet hubby!!! miss him so so so so much!!! nv hear his voice for so so so so so many days.... friday he's coming out, like finally!!!! YAY! i'm so looking forward to it man... loves=)

my post like getting shorter and lesser... seems like i don't have much life now... haha! oh ya! last saturday went to hubby's house as his triplet cousins are celebrating their birthday. though he's not around, i'm still invited by her sis and family, but was his sis's idea to ask me go la! initially i felt a bit weird, cause hubby is not around mah, but the sis say never mind one, and the aunt also ask me go, so paiseh to reject... haha! and i went! and indeed, i've enjoyed myself!!! thanks xinyi for accompanying me whole night, and sent me out, together with weizhong(i think correct, the 2nd of the triplets)... LOL. thanks fayette for asking me to go:) and accompanied me chit-chatted from afternoon till the buffet starts, together with tingrong... how i wish i have a younger sister... haha!

and i did some photoshooting trial with jez together on sunday... photographers were mervin and kenneth(assistant)... i guess i didn't do really good, cause i feel weird... haha! but i always like to try thing:) for once in a life time experience mah... haha! maybe next time successful i can be famous liao los! haha! joking! never had this dream...

ok, now i guess i have decided to study diploma in early childhood!!!! i'll update on this again=)

driving lesson 4 and 5

2009-07-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

last saturday's driving lesson was a recap of everything after a more than one month's break... LOL... and yesterday, i learnt parking!!! both kinds of parking... kinda easy with poles actually, just have to listen to what the instructor says... can park nicely just the first time... haha! i learnt in a multi storey carpark... its so fun can! tmr i'm having my 6th lesson=) i love driving!!!

anyway, friday, i went to watch Ice Age 3 with hubby... it was quite hilarious, though i never watched part 1 and 2... today went over to hubby's house also... his godsis's birthday celebration... hubby's birthday coming soon... hehe.... so anxious to celebrate his birthday with him the first time... hope everything goes right... haha!

reflection

2009-06-27T11:25:00.003+08:00

its been about a week again... time past so fast...

seriously, i'm beginning to feel that my life is so boring... where are my friends outings??? life now is only work and work... haha... but at least i enjoy my work(when with kids, not in the office)...

that's why i also have nothing to blog about anymore, its just all about work, everyday the same routine. if i were to blog everyday, won't you guys be bored? LOL

went to catch "I LOVE YOU MAN" last friday with hubby. the show is not bad for a comedy, i give it a 4/5. wanted to catch transformers yesterday de, but the timings not right. LOL.

cant really remember what happened for one week, only thing that can remember is work. anyway, remember i stopping my driving lessons after 3 lessons? today i'm gonna continue my lesson!!! i think i'm going to learn it every saturday, until my TP.

annother thing that stress me now is my portfolio module. i haven't started doing it yet. sian. don't have the mood to do it leh.

hmmm, relationship parts, as normally, there are ups and downs. and it feels that the time spent together has become shorter, but i hope and it is quality time spent. adults always says its better not to keep meeting up with your partner, they says that both will get bored of each other, do you guys think its true? cause for me, i think that its not true... i don't feel that way... for me, i want to spend as much time as possible with my love one.

and where are my friends? suddenly i feel that we are getting apart too, is it just me? i can see that in years time, when everyone is out working, we will drift further... i dont wish this to happen... and i miss you people, really....

all i wish for is happiness for everyone and everything goes smoothly =)

busy

2009-06-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

sorry for neglecting you for so many days... i've been busy with work and hubby these few days...

sunday, went to watch Ghost of Girlfriends past with hubby at gv yishun... till midnight, walked home... the show is great! there's meaning behind it... it actually also teaches guys how to flirt... but but but... the story behind it is that you will regret it... hahaha!!!

monday, after my work ends at 7pm, i go to my lesson which is at 8.15pm... and it ends at 9.15pm... as promised, hubby came down to pick me and went to 848 for dinner together... eat and chatted and slacked till around 11 den i went home...

tuesday, went to hubby's house to meet him after my work at 7pm, again.... reached his house around 8.15... and as planned, we went to eat beancurd later at night... saw his parents came back while on our way out... his parents drove us to chongpang beancurd there... haha! and took bus back =)

wednesday, which was also yesterday, again, ended work at 7pm... asked hubby to come my here and have dinner as i have cravings for rosti and cheese!!! made me wait for him for 20mins... arghhh.... anyway, dinner at buddy hoaggies was nice!!! thumbs up! after that went to slacked at my house the playground there and had some heart to heart talk... it was nice... and hubby lied on my thighs while we were talking... how i wish that moment could freeze forever... haha...

oh ya, had been talking about hubby and my stuffs, totally forgotten about work! haha! work to fun these few days only after 1130... from 1000 to 1130, i'm doing admin stuffs, which sucks... because i don't like to be in the office doing all those stuffs.... next week's schedule, more of me staying in the office!!! SIAN TO THE MAX!!! please help me pray that they can hire an admin person faster... so i need not do all these shit... haha!!!!

16 I LOVE YOU

2009-06-13T13:30:00.004+08:00

i love the way you are
i love the way you hug me
i love the way you kiss me
i love the way you feed me
i love the way you assure me
i love the way you look at me
i love the way you care for me
i love the way you smile at me
i love the way you joke with me
i love the way you appreciate me
i love the way you hold my hands
i love the way you blow dry my hair
i love the way you make me feel warmth
i love the way you and me cuddle to sleep
i love the way you make me feel comfortable
i love the way you say your feelings towards me

hoping to see the future in us... wish everything goes smoothly... hope we can solve every problem together... and we'll build a stronger relationship...

10jun'09 celebration

2009-06-13T13:16:00.004+08:00

celebrated kenny's birthday and zhao's enlightment on that day.... but didn't get to see zhao when i reached there at 9plus... anyway, night was fun.... love have gatherings and see them.... updates on everyone, lots of fun and craps... it just feels so happy and good when your closest group of friends are around you.... time always past so fast when you are enjoying.... when can i get to meet everyone again???

happy birthday kenny!!! tmr then is his actual day!

not what we girls requested to see... LOL

dunno what they doing...

also not what we wanted to see....
HP and kenneth should be more girly...

kenny and the guys

kenny is feeling so honoured... LOL

kenny and the girls

group photo

sc says he purposely doesn't want to face the camera

Alfred's wedding

2009-06-07T23:37:00.006+08:00

Saturday afternoon went to 400plus there to do hair treatment and trim my hair with mum, as my cousin called me and told me that they are having a june promotion whereby its half priced for most of the things... cutting hair is only at $2.50... and hair treatment that i did was only at $18... ain't that cheap??? hahax....

during the night went to Marina Madarin hotel for my godbrother's wedding. the food was nice and the live band that they hired was great... and it was the only time where we get to gather as a BIG family... get to see all the aunties, uncles, cousins, nephews and nieces.... pictures to share now....

mum, jason, sis, me

mum and me

sis and me

pretty ladies...

stairs of marina madarin hotel

our little nephew

the bride and the groom

2nd game played to cross the barrier...

godmum, me, goddad, mum

my niece and me

mum's siblings

me, jason, sis

sis, grandma, me

aren't we pretty? haha...

only both of us paid attention to jason's camera

regina(eldest niece) and me

both are my nieces! haha!!!

2nd day of work

2009-06-06T11:39:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my 2nd day... felt so tired, almost cant wake up.... but the thought of having to see the kids just made me woke up =) so far, i'm loving them and this job so much!!!! yesterday did the same things, everyday would be same routine... only the activities that they do changes... yesterday's outdoor was going to the stadium and have a run... everyone runs one round, only a boy, named Jayden, is the most energetic one, he always run 2 rounds... so ms lim asked me if i can run, and i said yes, so i took care of him, followed him run 2 runs... he's so cute!! haha... he kept looking at my legs... i think he's wondering why my one step is his 3-4 steps... LOL.

showered one girl, not because she wet her pants, but she spilt her milk on her shirt... so just rinse her only =) no one wet their pants today, all good children... haha. and around 4pm, parents and siblings of Sharmus and Xinhui came down with one cake each!!! it was to celebrate their birthday... they were so adorable and all were so excited!!! yesterday, all their parents came to pick them quite early...

it was also ms kristie's last day, she's a 15yrs old attachment for one week's student, but she don't look like one... haha. and yesterday, i den know that ms lim is only 18yrs old!!! we guessed that she was 20plus!!! she dun look like one, dun sound like one.... OMG OMG!!!! and they those i was after 0'levels!!!! they say not only my built makes me look young, my face also dun like like 20yrs old!!! haha!!! thats always the case.... among them i'm the oldest, but i looked the youngest... dunno whether to be happy or sad...

anyway, yesterday was another tired day... after work, went over to find hubby, and passed him the cookies!!! after that he accompanied me back home, coz i need to do some things and shower myself first... and we went over to GV at about 10plus and got a movie at 11.25pm... we watched BLOOD:THE LAST VAMPIRE!!! it was a nice show action pact, quite gore actually... haha... but i gave it a 4/5 rate =) so during the one hour before show starts, we went to 925 for my dinner and slacked till almost time for the show to start...

walked back home after that, my energy was really drained... legs were aching, i dunno why, maybe because i run that 2rounds, cause i didn't run for ages already... and also keep walking around, standing up and down... my kneecaps hurts, calf muscles aching.... and so tired.... and guess what? so sweet of hubby to suggest piggybacking me =) he piggybacked me about 3/4 of the route to go home, and got himself perspired a lot... haha... I LOVE HUBBY SO MUCH!!! and he's shoulders are so comfortable and nice to lean on =) back home, lied on my bed, smsed hubby awhile and KNOCKED OUT!!!

my mind is keep thinking about the kids and their ryhmes... omg... haha!!! i cant wait for monday to come!!! i wanna go work!!! haha... and hubby dun jealous ok? hehe... got think of you also lah....

I LOVE MY HUBBY!!!
I LOVE THE KIDS!!!
I LOVE MY JOB!!!

1st day of work

2009-06-04T20:30:00.004+08:00

hi people, i'm gonna share with you all my first day of work today... it was fun!!! and the kids were adorable... and they have schedule for the whole day, its a daily routine... and their nap is 1pm to 3.45pm... which oso can be our nap... haha!!!

today i was posted to the Toddlers(T) class, all around 2-3 yrs old... they were so adorable can!!! OMG!!! and my job as assistant teacher, obviously is to assist the teachers... well, the only difference between me and the teacher's job is that she teach the class and maybe planning or some admin stuffs.... other than that what she does i do also... haha!!!

tell you what i did today:

played with the kids
wiped a boy's butt, cause he poo-ed
brought them out, together with the teachers, for outdoor activities
watched them played mouse and cat
brought them back in
see them go toilet, help them
take temperature for them
see them drink half the bottle of their water
teacher bathed them, and i dried them and wear clothes for them
listen to teacher's lesson, music room
put their bedsheets for them
go for their lunch, we eat with them, helped them at the same time
see them brush teeth
nap time!!! patted them to sleep
went for my break, supposedly an hour, but i go half hour, coz nth to do
back and rested with them awhile
nua nua nua until around 3pm, when some of them wake up
den brought them to toilet, see them, help them.
cleaned a girl's butt, cause she poo-ed
around 3.45pm, all woked up, and 3 of them wet their pants and mattress
i bathed for the 3 of them, 1 girl 2 boys
rinsed their soiled clothing and bed sheet with something like "dettol"
rinsed the mattress and disinfect it with the spray
few went home, activities time for those are still there
watched them played, its actually to make their thumb and index finger flexible, its to put and take down the small balls on the hands of the caterpillar
on and off see them go toilet
packed up and wait for their parents to pick them
6.30pm, splashed water/rinse the toilet bowls, and sprayed the disinfect around the toilet

thats what i did today=) so proud of myself... haha!!! tmr will be working from 9am to 6pm... looking forward to see the kids!!! oh ya, a few of them are special kids, one has autism, one hyper active, one slow, and i think still got a few more in other classes... but they are all adorable!!!! and their ryhmes are nice =) also, i'm called as MS LEOW... haha!!! "children... keep quiet...." i wonder if i would pursue in this line.... shall see how it goes after a few months... haha!!!

oh ya! and i told my mummy about this what i did... she says "high class nanny" LOL.... i enjoyed their company=)

cookies!

2009-06-04T19:49:00.006+08:00

this post should be posted yesterday... but the photos came too late for me to blog... haha!!! anyway, yesterday went to pris's house to bake cookies!!! guess what flavour it is??? IT'S MACADAMIA AND CHOCOLATE CHIP!!! OMG!!! so proud of ourselves can!!! it's a success!!!! though the first batch that we put in the oven failed... cause we put too much butter... LOL... and the more we make the more successful it is.... haha!!! it taste nice and crunchy ok! =) show you guys a lot of the pictures!!!!

trying to find the section that we wanted to go...

FOUND!!! and i'm looking at the ingredients that we need...

tadahhhh~ back home with complete ingredients.

start work! preheat and grease the pan.

mixing butter with sugars(white and dark brown)

mix with egg and vanilla extract

mix mix mix....

chopping macadamia nuts!!

mixed in flour, salt, baking soda...
den chopped macadamia and chocolate chips...

batch one that's going into the oven!!!

FAILED!!! haha!!! but somehow i managed to save it!!!

so.... this is the first successful piece...
but its very flat, looks more like biscuit than cookie... LOL.

the chefs!!! haha

baking in progress!!!

ongoing improvements!!!

the end result!!! YAY!

got a job!

2009-06-02T17:46:00.003+08:00

finally i've gotten a job! haha! as an assistant teacher in touch community child care (hougang)... actually the person asked me if i want to work as admin assistant, but i told her i'm not the office kind and i prefer to work and interact with the children... haha! so she say she'll check again, cause currently she has alot of helpers...

mins later, she called back and tell me there's a vacancy at the hougang one... so... YAY!!! haha! however, she can only put me as a temp staff cause i don't have a cert on early childhood... and pay is only either 5.50 or 6 and has CPF deduction... but i dun mind, cause i'm doing what i like:) think it'll be tiring, but FUN!!!

starting work on thursday!!! =)

family day

2009-06-02T15:15:00.005+08:00

suddenly saw the pictures and realised that i missed out sunday's posting... haha!!! its sort of a family day, to me... went over to meet hubby and back home around evening to eat dinner with my family... and guess what? not me going back alone, but with hubby:) haha!

we went to teck chai terrace there for vegetarian dinner... the restaurant name is "da zi ran" which means nature... LOL. food wasn't that nice compared to last time that i went... haha! there were, mum and dad, sis and jason, hubby and me... so happy that hubby is willing to follow... haha... oh ya! and i forgot! my two doggies also went... but they stayed in the car... LOL... after that sis and bf went back home... and parents decided to go over to aunty rachael's house to lepak... LOL... hubby and me with two dogs followed along... thanks for your companion hubby! love you~

pictures!!!

dad and mum

jason and sis

me and hubby

family!

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the biscuit that i say about! the packaging is so cute!

posing with it

i think i look pretty here... haha!

loving it!

crayon shinchan so cute!

tadah!!! LOL.

comes with sticker and its in star shapes:)

off day

2009-06-01T14:47:00.005+08:00

hubby took off today... met up with him for breakfast at yishun Mac!!! =) after that we caught a movie as planned... watched "Terminator Salvation" at 1115 at yishun gv... had experienced watching show so early, and i guess i will avoid watching so early shows... the seats and everything just sux to the core... seats were moist... no air-con yet... and seats are smelly... totally sux man... luckily the the companion is right, that is my hubby =) with him around, nothing feels wrong... haha...

though hubby doesn't likes to shop, he still accompanied me... walked around northpoint, intending to get present a friend.... however, didn't manage to have anything catching my eye... suddenly, i thought of an idea of what to get... and we shuttle bus-ed to SSC and get my stuffs! present gotten =) haha!

oh ya! i bought the crayon shinchan's biscuit.... looks cute!!! shall let you know how does it taste when i've eaten it! haha!!! anyway, i bought the milk caramel flavour instead of the chocolate banana... haha!!!

now i'm slacking at hubby's house... until the time for me to go for my lesson! hubby says he's going to fetch me from there later... and we'll go lepak awhile before he books in... so happy!!! how sweet of hubby to do such things.... haha!!! loving him more and more =)

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6.09pm now, there are some changes due to some reasons... so i ain't going to lesson later... was thinking if i should go actually, cause was afraid that there might not be another chance that hubby will go there to fetch me after lesson... but but but... hubby said next week he can also fetch me... so... YAY-ness~ haha!!!

anyway, i ate the biscuit le!!! haha and took pictures... but unable to send the pictures into the com... so i'll upload when i'm home:) it tastes quite nice actually, hubby say so-so... but to me i think its nice... sweet... crunchy... haha!!! and its in a star shape... and comes with a sticker... i think there's a whole collection of it... so you can collect them... moreover, its 2bucks only!!! from daiso... haha!! its quite reasonable to me... gonna buy some home so i can munch it when i'm bored or when my mouth is itchy... hahahahahaha!!!!

eating dinner at hubby's house soon... and beancurd at chongpang later... =) loves~

out again

2009-05-30T15:42:00.004+08:00

yesterday met up with pris, went to bugis.. yes, bugis again... LOL.... she went to change the berms and shop around... bought some stuffs for herself... and we walked around.... she did pedicure... i bought a mini handheld sewing machine for 10bucks! damn cOol... now i can alter my jeans myself... haven try it yet... haha!!! will let you guys know if i can make it:) LOL... most probably can lah, have confidence.... haha... den hubby say den i got a job for myself already =) LOL. YES! i'm gonna collect mum's and sis's jeans to alter and make them to pay me!!! whahahahaa!!!! who ask my whole family so short and need to alter every long jeans or pants that we buy... LOL.

after that went to city hall, she meet her friends as they intended to go for a ride at Singapore flyer... as they say its the last day promotion for tertiary students at 10bucks rate only =) i was suppose to be meeting hubby at city hall too and planned to walked around and eat and relax there... who knows, when he's on the way, reaching city hall in a few stops, his frens called him to go bottle tree eat... i say anything lah... so we met up in train and trained back to khatib...

it was zhe ting's birthday... so they celebrated his birthday there... there are aunty and her two daughters(shannon and meimei), khang yong, justin, bandung, zheting, ah lu and his wife, zi jian and his gf, hubby and me... after shannon and meimei eat finish, they went to the playground. and i go look after them, since i also eat finish... LOL... they are adorable... haha... after that went back to hubby's house to rest awhile as our movie is at 12.10am... ying khiam joined for movie too...

we watched "The Conspiracy"... i think the show alright only leh... reminds me of last time a movie, also similar one... but i cant think of the title... its also about the technology running by itself, wanting to ruin the whole country... so i think the show alright only... OH! i remembered the movie that i was trying to refer to... its called "Eagle's eyes"...

walked back home and have supper at 848 since i'm way too hungry to get to sleep... LOL. and reach home around 3plus am... while wanting to bathe that time, saw a damn big cockroach!!!! in the TOILET!!!! didnt know what should i do... i scared later i naked den it come on my body!!! cockroaches are so disgusting can!!! so i washed my face at the kitchen's sink, cause i cant be looking at it while washing my face mah... den every steps i do, i look at it... my eyes never leave the cockroach... faster shower and soaped, dry and wear clothes... and out!!!! haha!!! the cockroach is about my little finger's size... which is considered big!!!! arghhh!!!!

and had alot of laughters with hubby.... he's the one.... everytime making me laugh... haha!!! i'm so happy to have him... he made my days... i appreciate everything that you do =) and i can feel you love for me=) hahahahahhahahaha!!!!

i'm a happy girl =)

saboteur

2009-05-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

regarding the movie that i watched just now, its just a so-so show... i give it 3 out of 5... hubby and i had dinner at 848 and dessert at khatib mac... sent hubby off to take cab... and i waited for darling, phil, sc, kenny, kenneth...

just back from khatib mac... played saboteur for an hour plus or about 2 hours... haha.... so fun... haven been meeting them for so long already lo... miss those fun days with them... =)

i'm so happy!!! =)

out out

2009-05-27T14:45:00.004+08:00

going over to hubby's house later to drag him out of the bed. and we'll head towards causeway point to catch a movie called Fireball: muay thai dunk... haha!!! den we'll have dinner together and relac for a while before hubby needs to book in =)

its been so long since we travel until so far... though its still near lah... LOL... but at least out of yishun... haha.... so happy that can spend quality time with him....

love you~

mistakes

2009-05-27T11:59:00.005+08:00

just wish to say to my hubby, though everything is fine now...

I'm really sorry...
I really love you...
I never lie or hide things from you at all...
I don't wanna lose you because of my stupid mistakes...

3rd driving lesson

2009-05-26T12:11:00.002+08:00

yesterday went for my driving lesson... new thing learnt yesterday was 3-point turn... LOL... next lesson think i can learn parking lo.... nothing much to say about the third lesson leh... LOL.... but somehow not very excited compared to 1st and 2nd lesson... haha....

had a bad dream last night... =(

anyway, watched Night at the Museum 2 on friday night... its a nice and funny show!!! should go catch it!!! haha!!! it will make u laugh!!!

oh ya, glad that hubby was happy and liked those stuffs that i bought for him =)
meeting him later!!! =) loves~

2nd driving lesson

2009-05-21T16:25:00.003+08:00

back from driving lesson!!! haha!!! fun fun fun!!! instructor says that i not bad lo... he thought i got practice with my dad's car or got people teach me lo... LOL.... was damn fun!!! today, picked me at Bishan... drove around Bishan, AMK, Lentor, Toapayoh and back to Bishan.... shiok!!! again, U-turns!!! hahaa!!! this time de U-turn is i control myself... and this time he doesn't touch much on the steering wheel, unless really off den he touches it... and and and, i got to drive till 60km/h.... YAY! hmmm... engine stalled once, due to me depressing the brake without depressing the clutch... LOL...

new thing learnt today is the up slope!!! stopped at the slope and move without getting the car rolling back.... not bad... today get more of the feel of the car... gonna chiong and book early july TP... hopefully everything goes well...

going to meet hubby soon!!! in 2hours' time...

shopaholic!

2009-05-21T11:47:00.002+08:00

yesterday met up with pris, like finally lah! so long didnt meet up le!!! she loss a lot of weight sia... getting more and more skinny... i scared she have anorexic lo!!! told her to see doctor if her appetite still as bad...

went around orchard to shop... nothing much to shop in orchard leh... didnt get anything from orchard oso... next we headed to bugis!!! guess what!!! we spent 3plus almost 4hours in just bugis street itself!!!! OMG!!!! bought a lot of things sia!!!! den went over to Iluma, the new shopping mall there and walk.... and we left bugis at 8plus.... she went to clarke quay to meet her friends and i went tiong bahru to meet my parents....

in total, we both spent slightly more than 100bucks each... LOL... she bought a polo tee and berms for him, about 25bucks is his stuffs.... so calculate how much she spent on herself... for my case, one dress and blouse for myself, 25bucks in total... so calculate the rest of the money that i spent on hubby's stuffs=) haha!!! so happy!!! was in the mood of shopping!!! shiok!!! so long never spend so much in one day lo... not sure if i estimated hubby's size correctly.... hope it fits well =)

i'll be having my 2nd driving lesson later!!!! still, excited like the first lesson... haha!!! after lesson, wait for hubby to book out at around evening time... dunno where to go in between, might be hanging around malls or go hubby's house and wait(suggested by hubby)... LOL!

bye~

1st driving lesson!

2009-05-20T11:15:00.003+08:00

yesterday i had my first driving lesson!!! was so excited about it!!! and it really was fun!!! went to Braddell to meet my instructor... first lesson, i learnt about, the clutch, break, accelerator, gears, mirrors, signals.... LOL... and he say since i passed my FTT le, he shall not say so much... LOL.

and i get to drive around Braddell, drove, up to gear 4, learnt U-turn, and drove till Ubi!!!!! but only get to drive till 40km/h... when i go more than that, he will say "don't so fast ar..." LOL! haha!!!! but of course with his instructions of changing gears and release or depress the accelerator... engine stalled twice... LOL... both at traffic light, cause i release my clutch too fast... LOL...

one word about driving : SHIOK !!!!!!

tomorrow i'll be having my second lesson=)

and i miss my hubby so much... he's back in sembawang camp... haven't seen him for 3 days... tmr den get to see him... looking forward to it =) miss you, hubby! loves~

shiok!

2009-05-18T18:07:00.001+08:00

just came back from SSDC!

guess what???

I PASSED MY FTT!!!! woots~

damn shiok and happy!!!

and i've applied for PDL le...

gonna start learning driving and chiong fast fast!!!!